Awww hun, i know exactly how you feel
Its been just over 3 months since i lost my baby Blackie and theres not 1 day that goes by without me thinking of him or having a little cry
His urn is at the bottom of my bed(his fav spot) and i blow a kiss to him evernight and cry a little
There are nights i just sit and cuddle Fudge and have a good cry but i know he is with me all the time, i feel his presence and see things (makes me sound mad but i dont care :roll
I dont think it gets easier and the pain will never go away but i know he is safe and that he loves me and he was happy so that gives me comfort.
I would love to give him a snuggle one last time but if i got that chance i wont ever let go
I do feel your pain, its such a hard thing to go through and only some people understand, which is why i love RU
Sending big hugs and just cry when you need to, dont keep it bottled up xxx