biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
added some vids and more memories now.
really struggling with losing him.
really struggling with losing him.
matt 02.06.06 - 31.08.13
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biscandmatt1
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for a week or two before matt passed, he was staring at me alot and wanted to be with me alot aswell. i even joked to dan that matt had finally seen sense and preferred me. do you think he knew he was going to go soon? because ches was the same before he went aswell - he wanted to stay on my knee longer and he kept gazing at me.
because ches was the same before he went aswell - he wanted to stay on my knee longer and he kept gazing at me.Tuckerbunnies
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What an absolutely beautiful tribute to a very gorgeous and special bunny,
I'm so very sorry you lost him
Binky free forever at the Bridge gorgeous boy all well again xxxxxxxxxxx
Hugs for you ((()))
I'm so very sorry you lost him
Binky free forever at the Bridge gorgeous boy all well again xxxxxxxxxxx
Hugs for you ((()))
BerryJane
Alpha Buck
I havent been on here for a few days so apologies for the delayed response.
I am so glad you have been able to write such a wonderful tribute to your special boy. I am sat here crying as I have read it. Your love for him shines through. I know you will still be suffering so much but I hope you are coping a little better and not torturing yourself with what ifs. Hope Bisc is doing ok ( you may have put it on another thread that I have missed) Take care xx
I am so glad you have been able to write such a wonderful tribute to your special boy. I am sat here crying as I have read it. Your love for him shines through. I know you will still be suffering so much but I hope you are coping a little better and not torturing yourself with what ifs. Hope Bisc is doing ok ( you may have put it on another thread that I have missed) Take care xx
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
i'm not doing so great if i'm honest. you know those times where you're struggling so much but know if you can just get through 'x' amount of time then things will be ok again? well i feel like that but i know there isn't going to be that 'ok' time at the end. this will be forever because he isn't coming back. and it's hard.
i go through the whole guilt thing and then push it away again. i just feel so numb really but still in pain. don't know if that makes sense. just totally sick to the stomach still.
it's not even been long and i feel like i have been feeling this way for years already.
i miss him
and it's hard. i go through the whole guilt thing and then push it away again. i just feel so numb really but still in pain. don't know if that makes sense. just totally sick to the stomach still.
it's not even been long and i feel like i have been feeling this way for years already.
i miss him
BerryJane
Alpha Buck
I really feel for you. It does get easier - not in a you dont miss them so much kind of way but in a learning to deal with it way.
Next door have recently had a cat who they have called Tilly. I feel a physical pain when I hear them calling her especially by the shortened version of 'Till' - it sounds so much like how we used to call our Tillie when I needed to get her from under my bed and brings all my sadness back. But we have also learned to cope with it. The cat Tilly stands outside our patio and stares at Berry who then gets annoyed and stamps. Our Tillie used to stare at Berry through their barriers and he would stamp. My husband says ' different animal, same name, same effect on Berry!!'
You have to do what feels right for you regarding your grief - dont let anyone tell you to move on and stop talking about Matt etc. 2 years and 3 months to the day since we lost Till I still kiss her casket every night and her picture on the wall with my son - it helps me and I dont care what anyone else says.
Sorry for going on about me but I just wanted you to know - as everyone else on here does - that we get it - we understand the hard, hard sadness and despair you feel.
Grieve and cry as much as you need - but you are right to push guilty thoughts away!!
Hugs to all xx
Next door have recently had a cat who they have called Tilly. I feel a physical pain when I hear them calling her especially by the shortened version of 'Till' - it sounds so much like how we used to call our Tillie when I needed to get her from under my bed and brings all my sadness back. But we have also learned to cope with it. The cat Tilly stands outside our patio and stares at Berry who then gets annoyed and stamps. Our Tillie used to stare at Berry through their barriers and he would stamp. My husband says ' different animal, same name, same effect on Berry!!'
You have to do what feels right for you regarding your grief - dont let anyone tell you to move on and stop talking about Matt etc. 2 years and 3 months to the day since we lost Till I still kiss her casket every night and her picture on the wall with my son - it helps me and I dont care what anyone else says.
Sorry for going on about me but I just wanted you to know - as everyone else on here does - that we get it - we understand the hard, hard sadness and despair you feel.
Grieve and cry as much as you need - but you are right to push guilty thoughts away!!
Hugs to all xx
Sarah1989
Warren Veteran
i'm not doing so great if i'm honest. you know those times where you're struggling so much but know if you can just get through 'x' amount of time then things will be ok again? well i feel like that but i know there isn't going to be that 'ok' time at the end. this will be forever because he isn't coming back.
i go through the whole guilt thing and then push it away again. i just feel so numb really but still in pain. don't know if that makes sense. just totally sick to the stomach still.
it's not even been long and i feel like i have been feeling this way for years already.
i miss him
Yes it makes sense. I haven't really anything else to say that I have not already said to you on other posts, but one more thing (apologies if I said it already) is I find talking about him helps. I don't know how your friends and family are, but mine expected me to be over Dexy really quickly and got fed up of me talking about him after only a week. So I bottled it all up until I joined this forum and found nice bunny people who "got it". So make sure you have someone or somewhere where you can talk about him as much as you want, even if you repeat yourself. Having a sympathetic ear to listen can help. Feel free to PM anytime if you want to talk
Otherwise, lots of hugs
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
Yes it makes sense. I haven't really anything else to say that I have not already said to you on other posts, but one more thing (apologies if I said it already) is I find talking about him helps. I don't know how your friends and family are, but mine expected me to be over Dexy really quickly and got fed up of me talking about him after only a week. So I bottled it all up until I joined this forum and found nice bunny people who "got it". So make sure you have someone or somewhere where you can talk about him as much as you want, even if you repeat yourself. Having a sympathetic ear to listen can help. Feel free to PM anytime if you want to talk
Otherwise, lots of hugs
thank you both. dan and i talk about matt everyday. it's just everything reminds me of something to do with him and it's whilst it is nice to always remember, it is also really hard at the same time.
i'm just heartbroken. more than that. i can't explain but i know you all know the feeling sadly. it's just awful. i keep going over and over it in my head and it just doesn't make any sense. why my little matt.
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
sending you a massive hug. xxx
anaveragemuppet
Wise Old Thumper
sending you love and hugs Lea. I'm so sorry.xxxxxx
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
thanks claire. i miss my little fluffy matt matt x
bugglebun
Alpha Buck
I'm so sorry about this news. I don't visit this section too often as I get too emotional. But with the recent events in my life I feel drawn. I understand totally, crying when trying to feed a sick bun and they respond. And then the guilt, things like I should've got to the vets sooner or got her checked properly...I'm in that space with you.
...hugs...
...hugs...
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
thank you. sending you a hug aswell for your loss. grief is really a horrible feeling. ups and downs. x
biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
hi matt,
i just felt the need to come and post to you. we miss you so much. i think about you all the time and sometimes it's so very hard. like now. i'm looking after bisc for you. he misses you lots and lots. we might need to get him a new friend at some point. i hope you don't mind. no bun could ever replace you but bisc would have some company again.
i love you so much my beautiful boy. so, so much. i hope you're having fun at the bridge and being a silly sheep. i'm sending you a nose rub and so many kisses and cuddles.
love you matt xxx
i just felt the need to come and post to you. we miss you so much. i think about you all the time and sometimes it's so very hard. like now. i'm looking after bisc for you. he misses you lots and lots. we might need to get him a new friend at some point. i hope you don't mind. no bun could ever replace you but bisc would have some company again.
i love you so much my beautiful boy. so, so much. i hope you're having fun at the bridge and being a silly sheep. i'm sending you a nose rub and so many kisses and cuddles.
love you matt xxx
