I certainly have not forgotten about Sky. I did not post again on here til now as I did not feel it to be my place to do so. I know there are no words from anyone that will lessen the grief, isolation, darkness and pain you are feeling. Believe me if there were the words I'd use them.
All I will say is that time may not lessen the intensity of the feelings of devastating loss (or sometimes the 'deadness, the feeling of nothingness then feeling ashamed for having the feelings of 'nothingness'............) but somehow muddling through each day gets done, even if it can feel like a pointless chore.
Giving up can seem so very appealing, but one look around at the numerous faces of the 100% dependent little souls, dependent on us alone, no-one else can give them what we can, means 'leaving' now is not an option.
(((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))) xx