biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
my heart breaks for you, it really does 
sweet dreams beautiful poppy. x
sweet dreams beautiful poppy. x
My baby Poppy
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Captain Helen
Wise Old Thumper
I'm so sorry Binky free pretty Poppy xx
Binky free pretty Poppy xx
MrsCoultas
Mama Doe
Today has been ok. After laying her to rest yesterday evening I feel like I can start grieving a bit, but I don't think I'll be able to fully take it all in until my in-laws have their dogs back. I want to spend all of my time with Ragnar but he is more independent than the dogs (weird I know), the dogs have been here a couple of months while my in-laws are inbetween houses (they sold their house before they could take on the new one so they're living in a caravan...). Once to dogs are back to their own home, Ragnar will move down stairs into the living room which was the original plan when we got him, once we had bonded in with Poppy, but then to dogs came.
I spent some time sitting at Poppy's spot in the garden, put a new dandelion on the ground for her. She has a little wooden hut that my parents bought her for Christmas, she loved it a lot, and my husband and I got her another one to go with it. Ragnar can fit in the one that we gave her but his bum a bit too big to fit into the other one :lol: So I've asked my mum if I can turn it into some sort of planter, maybe cut a hole in the top and put in a little plant pot to fill with some poppy seeds for her.
Ragnar is doing really well, he's eating well, he's grooming himself, he did a big binky at breakfast time today. He seems to like the cuddlies I've given him to snuggle with. I've also split his pellets up this evening, usually he eats all of them in one go, thought it would be a bit of fun for him to have half of them in his bowl and the other half in his treat ball. Lots of fun for him. I keep talking to him about Poppy, about how I wish they had gotten to know each other even more and what her favourite things to play with. He seems to be sitting in her favourite spots too, which is nice.
I've been ok most of the day but it's silly things that are making me cry. Like I was emptying the bin and there was a bag from when I cleaned them out the other day, it didn't smell horrible at all, it just had that really sweet smell and it just smelt of her. I ended up just leaving the bag in the kitchen, I should really take it out in a minute. Then I thought I should really clean up all of the bits from Saturday, like the dishes for mixing the recovery food, the syringes and then her breakfast bowl, still full of the breakfast she didn't eat that morning. I had to push myself really hard to throw it away, plus half a banana that I tried to get her to eat. But then I'll have moments where I've completely forgotten, everything seems normal and then it's like a slap.
I've emailed the welfare officer for my husbands boat, essentially we're not allowed to give bad news in our messages, so we tell welfare, they send it to the captain and he will tell my husband when he thinks it is appropriate. So until he's back I can't write anything about how I'm feeling and I won't know when he gets told. But at least the first thing I tell him when I see him wont be that Poppy has gone.
I've sent off Poppies fur for the bead to be made, I've asked if it's possible for her to make a poppy shape in the glass, she isn't sure but she's going to have a go, which is lovely. My parents have said they will pay for it, they were going to send me flowers but thought that the bead was such a lovely idea. I've saved a bit of extra fur just in case my husband wants anything made with it when he is back.
Sorry for the long post, just needed to get it out of my head. Thank you all for you beautiful words, it means so much to me to have such wonderful people around x
I spent some time sitting at Poppy's spot in the garden, put a new dandelion on the ground for her. She has a little wooden hut that my parents bought her for Christmas, she loved it a lot, and my husband and I got her another one to go with it. Ragnar can fit in the one that we gave her but his bum a bit too big to fit into the other one :lol: So I've asked my mum if I can turn it into some sort of planter, maybe cut a hole in the top and put in a little plant pot to fill with some poppy seeds for her.
Ragnar is doing really well, he's eating well, he's grooming himself, he did a big binky at breakfast time today. He seems to like the cuddlies I've given him to snuggle with. I've also split his pellets up this evening, usually he eats all of them in one go, thought it would be a bit of fun for him to have half of them in his bowl and the other half in his treat ball. Lots of fun for him. I keep talking to him about Poppy, about how I wish they had gotten to know each other even more and what her favourite things to play with. He seems to be sitting in her favourite spots too, which is nice.
I've been ok most of the day but it's silly things that are making me cry. Like I was emptying the bin and there was a bag from when I cleaned them out the other day, it didn't smell horrible at all, it just had that really sweet smell and it just smelt of her. I ended up just leaving the bag in the kitchen, I should really take it out in a minute. Then I thought I should really clean up all of the bits from Saturday, like the dishes for mixing the recovery food, the syringes and then her breakfast bowl, still full of the breakfast she didn't eat that morning. I had to push myself really hard to throw it away, plus half a banana that I tried to get her to eat. But then I'll have moments where I've completely forgotten, everything seems normal and then it's like a slap.
I've emailed the welfare officer for my husbands boat, essentially we're not allowed to give bad news in our messages, so we tell welfare, they send it to the captain and he will tell my husband when he thinks it is appropriate. So until he's back I can't write anything about how I'm feeling and I won't know when he gets told. But at least the first thing I tell him when I see him wont be that Poppy has gone.
I've sent off Poppies fur for the bead to be made, I've asked if it's possible for her to make a poppy shape in the glass, she isn't sure but she's going to have a go, which is lovely. My parents have said they will pay for it, they were going to send me flowers but thought that the bead was such a lovely idea. I've saved a bit of extra fur just in case my husband wants anything made with it when he is back.
Sorry for the long post, just needed to get it out of my head. Thank you all for you beautiful words, it means so much to me to have such wonderful people around x
TheThreeB's
Mama Doe
Hi there, it sounds like you have been keeping busy. Your ideas for Poppy's part of the garden and the bead idea are really lovely. That's nice of your parents too x
Tuckerbunnies
Wise Old Thumper
I'm so sorry at your loss, what beautiful rabbit's , the brown one looks just like our Martin Sable girl 'Katie' :-(
Binky free at the Bridge Poppy , beautiful girl xxxxx
Binky free at the Bridge Poppy , beautiful girl xxxxx
MrsCoultas
Mama Doe
Thanks Clare, I can't even describe how much this place has helped me and knowing I can come here when I know no-one else will understand is amazing.
I had a message from the lady doing my bead with Poppy's fur in it, she received the fur and will let me know when she sends it back, I'm really excited to get it.
It's my sister-in-laws wedding tomorrow, doing the four and a half hour journey by train today. The dogs and Ragnar have gone off on their mini-break, I hated saying good bye to Raggy this morning. He was so good getting into his carry case though, it's the first time he's actually had to go in it since he came to live here in February! He was quite happy in there really, just made me think of how annoyed Poppy would get with me everytime I tried to put her into her case, she would just give me the biggest run around, she wasn't even scared as she would run away and binky was she did haha. It's going to be a difficult day tomorrow. It will be a week since she crossed the rainbow bridge, also a reminder that my husband isn't here because he has made a video to be played at the reception, and having to be 'happy' and 'cheerful' all day, it's exhausting. I have a great excuse to leave earlyish if needs be, my seizures are triggered by sleep deprivation, although they're more controlled than they used to be, they're still not 100%. Plus they know that I'm not in a great place emotionally with Poppy and my husband.
I had a message from the lady doing my bead with Poppy's fur in it, she received the fur and will let me know when she sends it back, I'm really excited to get it.
It's my sister-in-laws wedding tomorrow, doing the four and a half hour journey by train today. The dogs and Ragnar have gone off on their mini-break, I hated saying good bye to Raggy this morning. He was so good getting into his carry case though, it's the first time he's actually had to go in it since he came to live here in February! He was quite happy in there really, just made me think of how annoyed Poppy would get with me everytime I tried to put her into her case, she would just give me the biggest run around, she wasn't even scared as she would run away and binky was she did haha. It's going to be a difficult day tomorrow. It will be a week since she crossed the rainbow bridge, also a reminder that my husband isn't here because he has made a video to be played at the reception, and having to be 'happy' and 'cheerful' all day, it's exhausting. I have a great excuse to leave earlyish if needs be, my seizures are triggered by sleep deprivation, although they're more controlled than they used to be, they're still not 100%. Plus they know that I'm not in a great place emotionally with Poppy and my husband.
joey&boo
Wise Old Thumper
I've been thinking about you & your gorgeous cuddly wee girl all week. I hope you manage to enjoy your day tomorrow (& show off your new outfit). It may provide a nice distraction, I hope so. You & Ragnar are being really brave. Send him nose rubs from me & my bunnies please
I've been thinking about you & your gorgeous cuddly wee girl all week. I hope you manage to enjoy your day tomorrow (& show off your new outfit). It may provide a nice distraction, I hope so. You & Ragnar are being really brave. Send him nose rubs from me & my bunnies please
I have also been thinking of you, Poppy and Ragnar all week. It's always sad when an RU rabbit loses its fight for life, but for me some rabbits touch the heart a little bit more than others. Poppy was one such rabbit.
I also hope you enjoy the wedding and are pleased with your outfit. Four and a half hours is a long way to travel. Take care and leave early if you feel you would be happier doing so.
I also think you have been incredibly brave posting on other threads and offering support to others. It must be very hard.
TheThreeB's
Mama Doe
All the best for your train journey today and the wedding tomorrow x
Like Omi said, leave early if you need to, don't put too much pressure on yourself. It's so hard anyway when our dh's are out of the country.
Thank you for the PM yesterday x
Like Omi said, leave early if you need to, don't put too much pressure on yourself. It's so hard anyway when our dh's are out of the country.
Thank you for the PM yesterday x
MrsCoultas
Mama Doe
It's been a tough weekend, it was my sister-in-laws wedding on Saturday which was really hard for me. 1 - My husband wasn't there, 2 - It was a week since Poppy passed away.
But something has absolutely amazed me. Not only has everyone been very supportive, people are saying how much they loved Poppy and how truly sad they were that she was gone. People who have never even met Poppy and have only ever seen photos, a couple of videos and my continuous posting here and also on my facebook. The fact that so many people on the forum here have said how they felt a connection to Poppy and Ragnar, is amazing to me. But in all honesty, I thought it was because we all have such a love for rabbits and their stories. But I had people coming up to me at the wedding, friends of friends and my husbands family that I have only met a couple of times but I have them on facebook, so many people saying how much they loved my bunny updates and how heartbroken they were when they heard the news.
Poppy was truly special, she had a sense for people and for their feelings, she saved me from myself numerous times and gave me a reason to get up in the morning. And knowing that it wasn't just mine and my husbands hearts that were touched by her, but potentially people all over the world, it's just amazing. And I know that where ever she is, she is tugging at the corners of carpets, ripping up cardboard and nibbling those forbidden cables, then flopping after a mornings hard work
But something has absolutely amazed me. Not only has everyone been very supportive, people are saying how much they loved Poppy and how truly sad they were that she was gone. People who have never even met Poppy and have only ever seen photos, a couple of videos and my continuous posting here and also on my facebook. The fact that so many people on the forum here have said how they felt a connection to Poppy and Ragnar, is amazing to me. But in all honesty, I thought it was because we all have such a love for rabbits and their stories. But I had people coming up to me at the wedding, friends of friends and my husbands family that I have only met a couple of times but I have them on facebook, so many people saying how much they loved my bunny updates and how heartbroken they were when they heard the news.
Poppy was truly special, she had a sense for people and for their feelings, she saved me from myself numerous times and gave me a reason to get up in the morning. And knowing that it wasn't just mine and my husbands hearts that were touched by her, but potentially people all over the world, it's just amazing. And I know that where ever she is, she is tugging at the corners of carpets, ripping up cardboard and nibbling those forbidden cables, then flopping after a mornings hard work
MrsCoultas
Mama Doe
I've been thinking about Poppy a lot today. I've started writing a letter to my husband for when he gets off the boat but before he gets off the base. He will have only been told that Poppy has passed away, no details. And it's not the first thing I want to talk about as soon as I see him, but I know he'll have questions. I keep going to say good morning to Poppy, expecting to see her cheeky face waiting for breakfast and wondering where the scratching and digging sound has gone. I've been looking after photos on my phone, I will never understand why I deserved such a loving and beautiful companion, she really was wonderful to me. She made me realise that whilst people aren't always nice, animals will still love you at the end of the day. I miss her so much x
MightyMax
Banned
Thinking of you. Pain can be so raw when we lose these little ones who love us unconditionally
This is so so true. Sending hugs.
bunnybannanas
Mama Doe
Heartbroken for you. I hope it gets easier with time xxx
TheThreeB's
Mama Doe
Hugs x
MrsCoultas
Mama Doe
I've had a more positive day. I was playing with Ragnar and I could have sworn I heard Poppy's noises she used to make. I'm not sure how to describe it, its was like she was going 'mmm mmm mmm' when she was walking around, almost like a really quiet squeaky floorboard! I'm not sure if I imagined it or if Raggy has started doing it too. Either way, it reminded me of when she used to run around making those funny noises I then had a message from the lady who was turning Poppy's fur into a glass bead, it's been dispatched and she sent me a photo I can't wait to get it and put it on my trollbead bracelet. If anyone wants to know where I got it from just ask, she does it with fur, hair and ashes. She's really lovely too.
I then had a message from the lady who was turning Poppy's fur into a glass bead, it's been dispatched and she sent me a photo I can't wait to get it and put it on my trollbead bracelet. If anyone wants to know where I got it from just ask, she does it with fur, hair and ashes. She's really lovely too.
I'm glad you've had a more positive day The bead has been beautifully made and I can understand how thrilled you are with it. I'm also pleased that you seem to have a lovely bond with Ragnar and he enjoys playing (I saw your other thread). I hope your husband is home soon.
The bead has been beautifully made and I can understand how thrilled you are with it. I'm also pleased that you seem to have a lovely bond with Ragnar and he enjoys playing (I saw your other thread). I hope your husband is home soon.
