MimzMum
Wise Old Thumper
Thank you, both.
My daughter and I traveled to the next town to see our doctor yesterday. It was the first time we went long distance without having Jenna with us. I don't think I could've made the journey alone, although it had been years since Jenna traveled with me. It was very strange, nonetheless.
While we did some shopping after out appointments there was a lady in line before us who had the best behaved wee French bulldog/Boston terrier cross seated in her cart wearing an ESA jacket. We didn't speak with her but could overhear the checker asking questions about her. I teared up for a moment remembering how Jenna would sleep in her go bag or her sling in happier days and how she helped me be able to do tasks by myself in strange places. I'm not sure I need that help anymore unless I'm already heavily stressed, but my anxiety doesn't play out the same way it used to.
Now, I just miss the companionship. But it's been so cold and I was so incredibly exhausted from the trip I wound up leaving work early last night. I think she used to energize me on jaunts like that. Now it's like I don't have that reserve anymore. I attribute it to aging, really, but being sure we traveled safely and came home in one piece was paramount and took all my focus especially when Jenna was with me.
She wouldn't be enjoying the autumn Oregon weather this year. It's truly draining me, I know she would've been uncomfy even if her health hadn't deteriorated.
It's odd that I'm still having to equivocation her absence to myself. Guess it's all part of it. I still feel so numb about both her and Sully. Everything in the stores is Christmas already and I'm just not into it. But I got a new thumb drive to begin storing backups of her photos so I hope once I get them organized I can choose some for this thread.
My daughter and I traveled to the next town to see our doctor yesterday. It was the first time we went long distance without having Jenna with us. I don't think I could've made the journey alone, although it had been years since Jenna traveled with me. It was very strange, nonetheless.
While we did some shopping after out appointments there was a lady in line before us who had the best behaved wee French bulldog/Boston terrier cross seated in her cart wearing an ESA jacket. We didn't speak with her but could overhear the checker asking questions about her. I teared up for a moment remembering how Jenna would sleep in her go bag or her sling in happier days and how she helped me be able to do tasks by myself in strange places. I'm not sure I need that help anymore unless I'm already heavily stressed, but my anxiety doesn't play out the same way it used to.
Now, I just miss the companionship. But it's been so cold and I was so incredibly exhausted from the trip I wound up leaving work early last night. I think she used to energize me on jaunts like that. Now it's like I don't have that reserve anymore. I attribute it to aging, really, but being sure we traveled safely and came home in one piece was paramount and took all my focus especially when Jenna was with me.
She wouldn't be enjoying the autumn Oregon weather this year. It's truly draining me, I know she would've been uncomfy even if her health hadn't deteriorated.
It's odd that I'm still having to equivocation her absence to myself. Guess it's all part of it. I still feel so numb about both her and Sully. Everything in the stores is Christmas already and I'm just not into it. But I got a new thumb drive to begin storing backups of her photos so I hope once I get them organized I can choose some for this thread.
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I really wanted to go up and speak to her, but was afraid I'd come off as creepy. She was obviously trying to get last minute stuff for Thanksgiving and I didn't want to be a pest. The Yorkie was a lot bigger than Jenna...likely a male and probably pedigree. 
I'll have to edit them or post to Imgur first, maybe. 
xx
much smaller than I expected.
