Jenova
Wise Old Thumper
It's getting too much and I just want to cry.
Grim is dying. I don't know what to do any more. He's getting so thin and he's struggling to breathe. He has all the medication although I might be able to get him some different antibiotics. I don't even know if he needs a dental or if he's just not eating as much because he can't breathe. There is no way he could have a dental, he's so bunged up it would just be so dangerous and I just know it would kill him. But he's wasting away. When he does eat he shows no signs of needing a dental, no pain or anything. But what if he does, what if it's worth trying?
And Smoo is overweight. It makes me feel like the worst owner. I hate fat animals and it makes me feel awful when they are other people's, but she's mine. I have to leave food out for Grim, he has no teeth so he can't eat hay, and he needs soggy food down all the time. But Smoo just eats it. I can't separate them. I thought long and hard about it over the last few days. They're devoted to each other. Grim is blind and he searches the room for her and he's not happy until he's found her. I thought about putting him in a dog crate so they could still have some contact, but as he's blind and his nose is bunged up so he can't smell, all he has is touch. How can I take that away, especially when I don't think he has long left. And Smoo loves him so much. She cleans him, when he's up to it he cleans her. It's such a special and loving relationship and I just can't take it away. But it's making Smoo unhealthy.
I feel like a rubbish owner. I just can't do all the right things for them. Smoo is having surgery tomorrow for her jaw abscess and I'm so worried because she's overweight. I don't know what the increase in risk is but if anything happens to her I know it'll be my fault. I just feel like I'm going to loose both of them. Last night I was just hugging them and crying.
I love my rabbits so much but, with Grim especially, it's been so emotionally hard. I'd do it all again for him, but if anyone ever asked me to take on a dental bunny I don't think I could do it.
I feel like after Grim and Smoo I need a little break from bunnies. But what if one goes without the other? There's no way I can bond Grim again, but Smoo? What if she gets depressed on her own. The whole thing is making me a bit depressed. I'm trying to snap out of it and get back to work.
Grim is dying. I don't know what to do any more. He's getting so thin and he's struggling to breathe. He has all the medication although I might be able to get him some different antibiotics. I don't even know if he needs a dental or if he's just not eating as much because he can't breathe. There is no way he could have a dental, he's so bunged up it would just be so dangerous and I just know it would kill him. But he's wasting away. When he does eat he shows no signs of needing a dental, no pain or anything. But what if he does, what if it's worth trying?
And Smoo is overweight. It makes me feel like the worst owner. I hate fat animals and it makes me feel awful when they are other people's, but she's mine. I have to leave food out for Grim, he has no teeth so he can't eat hay, and he needs soggy food down all the time. But Smoo just eats it. I can't separate them. I thought long and hard about it over the last few days. They're devoted to each other. Grim is blind and he searches the room for her and he's not happy until he's found her. I thought about putting him in a dog crate so they could still have some contact, but as he's blind and his nose is bunged up so he can't smell, all he has is touch. How can I take that away, especially when I don't think he has long left. And Smoo loves him so much. She cleans him, when he's up to it he cleans her. It's such a special and loving relationship and I just can't take it away. But it's making Smoo unhealthy.
I feel like a rubbish owner. I just can't do all the right things for them. Smoo is having surgery tomorrow for her jaw abscess and I'm so worried because she's overweight. I don't know what the increase in risk is but if anything happens to her I know it'll be my fault. I just feel like I'm going to loose both of them. Last night I was just hugging them and crying.
I love my rabbits so much but, with Grim especially, it's been so emotionally hard. I'd do it all again for him, but if anyone ever asked me to take on a dental bunny I don't think I could do it.
I feel like after Grim and Smoo I need a little break from bunnies. But what if one goes without the other? There's no way I can bond Grim again, but Smoo? What if she gets depressed on her own. The whole thing is making me a bit depressed. I'm trying to snap out of it and get back to work.