To be honest Jane I think you are a perfectly normal animal loving person. I lost my cat Charley earlier this year and a day never goes by without me thinking of her.
Charley came to live with me at a very difficult time in my life, when my health was very bad and we shared so many secrets and special moments throughout the 16 years we were together, I am honoured that she chose to spend her life with us. My hubby always referred to her as "my cat", she followed me everywhere, would be by my side no matter what I was doing, if I was ill she would curl up next to me, just so she could "check" I was ok. I don't need to tell you what a special bond formed between us, but every day I think of her and all our special moments, and every so often I shed a few tears (like now) when I think of her and I suspect I always will.
Knowing you can talk to like minded people on here is a huge help so never feel you can't post Jane.