Jane, I'm so very sorry. You are having such a terrible time. Please hang on in there. As you know it happens like that sometimes, especially when you have such loved elderly pets. I lost three rabbits and two little birds in the space of three months last year, I wanted to die too because I thought no one else understood how I felt, but since finding this Forum I have realised it's not just me, because others have an empathy with their animals too. You are so brave Jane and we're all rooting for you.