It takes ages and even when you think you are coping something happens to trigger emotions. It's because you loved het so much.
It took me 9 weeks to even go in the living room by in the end I had to. We have planted a blackberry plant outside the door as near to his room as we could.
I feel for you both but I really hope you take comfort in knowing - and you do know- what a wonderful life you gave lovely Julie. You showed her so much love, care and respect and try to hold on to that knowledge when it is so hard.
They leave such gaps in our lives but our lives are better for having had them in them. Crying over Julie and berry all over again now.
Take care xxxx