Thank you everyone. The thursday before i went away, she sat snuggled up next to me on the sofa for at least an hour. That was special but i never expected it to be our last.
The vet has checked her over, mouth, eyes, tummy. Nothing obvious. I can't have a pm done, it's not fair, she needs to be put to rest, not cut up more, she already has a slit ear.
We do think it was natural causes though, she was old, all the fur on her tummy had gone grey.
She'd been fine and lynne said she'd done amazing golden poos.
I just can't belive i've lost my other dutchie.
I can safely say i'm never leaving them and going on holiday again, I can't not be their for my other 2 buns when it's this time which i hope to God isn't soon.