Craig 1965
Warren Veteran
It is with much sadness but a great deal of thought, that I have decided to take a break from the forum and activity for a while. It is not a decision I've taken lightly but perhaps one I need to take because I am just not in a very good place right now. I have always been honest and candid with my views and observations and always always put the needs of my rabbits before my own regardless of that cost to me. I love rabbits dearly, as I do all animals and I try to do what is best but this is not always good enough.
In truth, I have never gotten over the sudden and tragic loss of Leo from our family. It robbed us all of a truly unique and amazing special rabbit and despite intense efforts from the professionals, it simply wasn't enough. I feel an enormous depth of guilt for how all that occured and I have not been able to find a coping strategy to deal with his loss, on top of the loss of Lillian and more recently, not being able to facilitate what I feel would be a safe bond with Flo and Peanut, even though my decision on that was taken as some may feel, rather quickly.
The safety of rabbits is my absolute priority and always will be and it was not a decision I took without much thought not only to my position as carer, but to Peanuts parents who are so lovely and wonderful, that they and Peanut deserved better from me. Peanut will be returning back home to his family next week - and that is Peanuts home and he will be absolutely happy and safe and his life will be filled with the most amazing love from fantastic bun-parents.
For me, I need to try and find a way to move on because I am not well. How I make myself better in the current climate I simply do not know because the help I need is not available out there due to the present situation (unless you are a certain ex-health minister in which case the rules you make for everyone else do not apply to you).
I am not sure when I will come back onto the forum but I am and always will be grateful for everyones help and advice and support.
Craig x
In truth, I have never gotten over the sudden and tragic loss of Leo from our family. It robbed us all of a truly unique and amazing special rabbit and despite intense efforts from the professionals, it simply wasn't enough. I feel an enormous depth of guilt for how all that occured and I have not been able to find a coping strategy to deal with his loss, on top of the loss of Lillian and more recently, not being able to facilitate what I feel would be a safe bond with Flo and Peanut, even though my decision on that was taken as some may feel, rather quickly.
The safety of rabbits is my absolute priority and always will be and it was not a decision I took without much thought not only to my position as carer, but to Peanuts parents who are so lovely and wonderful, that they and Peanut deserved better from me. Peanut will be returning back home to his family next week - and that is Peanuts home and he will be absolutely happy and safe and his life will be filled with the most amazing love from fantastic bun-parents.
For me, I need to try and find a way to move on because I am not well. How I make myself better in the current climate I simply do not know because the help I need is not available out there due to the present situation (unless you are a certain ex-health minister in which case the rules you make for everyone else do not apply to you).
I am not sure when I will come back onto the forum but I am and always will be grateful for everyones help and advice and support.
Craig x
