joey&boo
Wise Old Thumper
Thank you everyone. I wasn't expecting to have so many lovely messages this morning.
The thing that troubles me... I knew he was going to die young or early. The amount of stasis and gas episodes, me and OH had actually discussed PTS if he kept doing it because I didn't want him to die like Millie did. Obviously both being pets a home bunnies and the same age I believe they had genetics. I could see that Toby was acting off so I kept taking him to John. We had the choking, then I just had a feeling so I took him on the Monday to get his heart checked. Then on the Saturday he was In stasis then died Monday. I was so happy to go and collect him as I thought we had got away with it one more time. I see him him his carrier and he was looking really knackered and woobly on his feet. Just like Charlie did on the way home from John's after his ear surgery and stasis. I said to joe 'what pain killers have they give him he's off his nut". I even said "do you want to pull over and have a look at him?" OH said "it will be the pain killers again, John's let him go home for a reason". Then we continued driving and then he kept falling about and that's when I phoned the practice. John came back and we turnt the car around he was getting worse and worse then his head rotated to the side and collapsed. We managed to find a random vet on the way and ran through reception shouting if anyone could help us. A vet just grabbed the carrier and rushed him in. Our Toby had gone. We had to continue driving to John where he was waiting.
I feel like it was a really cruel way for Toby to die, he really suffered for around 20 minutes and there was nothing I could do. I wish I had him PTS or was able to treat him at home. Toby wanted to live to though, he loved food, climbing, attention, running around. He enjoyed his little life.
I did everything I could to help Toby. I did not want to loose him like Millie and my life was constant worry.
He was such a funny special boy and ill miss him always.
I get bad flashbacks at random times, could be working, out shopping. Will I ever be able to process that?
Sorry if anyone actually read all that just needed to write stuff. I'm going to go intrude the Syrup-Hoppington warren now and tell them I love them.
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I think the flashbacks & intensity of pain will ebb & flow, in time becoming more manageable.
Toby is the perfect example of how taking ALL the right steps to care for & protect him were no more able to save him than your bottomless pit of love I do suspect you probably bought him a little extra time & doubtless gave him an amazing lifestyle. It was obvious he was a happy bun & he was up to all sorts of shenanigans right up to his last stasis episode.
Regarding his passing I think its high likely he wasn't conscious of what was going on. Something that would look traumatic to us wouldn't necessarily reflect your bunnies experience of it.
Send my love to your wonderful pair too xx