thank you all for your vibes, i genuinely really appreciate it ❤
when i saw the vet earlier today (he told us his lunch break was not as important as seeing Ori in for a checkup and I am so thankful for their kindness, honestly), with how nervous he was he recommended (providing i feel comfortable) to monitor at home. he saw a real risk in Orion possibly deteriorating due to the stress of kennels and new people, considering he refused to be anywhere but by my side. they said there's nothing more they could do than me at home - outside of a possible IV but he was very well hydrated from the vets perspective. hence why (just like last night) we opted for at home.
i think i just feel really shaken up from earlier. none of my rabbits have ever been in that deep of a sleep to the point their noses don't twitch and they're totally unresponsive. of course. the passing of Luna is still raw in my mind, I opted to be with her, I needed that, but he just mimicked how she looked after passing so well. the panic I had when he didn't respond to my voice or words. he only moved because I went to scoop him up. gah. i think that's why i'm second guessing him being at home rn. my BF & vet agrees its the best for him rn but i can't shake that sheer panic and grief at believing we had lost him.
i can't tell if this stasis is from the chocolate or something else. he's so nervous today. I turned on the washing machine and he looked terrified. the vet appointment today too - he was unusually nervy on his vaccs but I put that down to being alone. but today he was trembling. whites of his eyes. he looked like we were toturing him honestly :s the pet remedy is almost out I think so I guess I need some more
idk, I just feel overwhelmed
my own physical health rn isn't helping. and i feel extremely guilty every day that we haven't found a suitable friend for him yet. i've had issues finding a rex (allergies) and its clear he needs a friend. i know i'm doing my best and spending days checking and calling. its not like i'm ignoring it or whatnot. but he's clingy (too clingy), sulks when he's apart from us and just so much more nervous. he isn't coping being alone.
i almost managed to get two rex girls but passed up last second because both were identical chocolates with no way to tell them apart, as silly as it is, it worried me a lot. worried about telling them apart or making mistakes with medicine if they ever needed that.
i can report: he's moving around a bit more! he isn't eating very much. took a little bit more kale. he's had a lot more fibre first sticks than usual.. i figured those might be good for him as its mostly just hay? he nibbles on them a little. there's also some small poops in the box, i did see him attempt a strand of hay or two earlier but not much more
we were using those last night as "are you still hungry" testers as ofc, when an animal is at risk of poisoning, you start to double think everything. so every half an hour for those first important 4 hours he'd get a quarter of a stick just to ensure he was willing to come to us and eat. he gets them on a daily basis usually anyway since they're a fairly healthy treat. but now I wonder if that caused the stasis?? idk
its not new food but certainly more than usual. but we also needed to check his appetite and movement somehow as when he'd lie down we'd start to worry ofc. even tho he lies down anyway, its just over thinking.
i hope he continues to improve, i feel exhausted tbh!!!
