After more than 5 years now, I am still not "over" losing Shadow. Not a bunny, but still the closest I have been to an animal companion since my Siamese cat, Mitzi, who I had for 10 years in my youth. And I often think of others who have gone before and since, and dread the eventuality of losing the ones I have now, knowing I will not bring home any more...but mostly Griff, Mimzy and Jenna...especially Jenna whom I do not even want to contemplate ever saying goodbye to.
I can only wish you peace, and eventually some kind of comfort in the memories of those who have gone...I know that probably it is not just the latest who have left in such quick succession, but the entire 45 (wow that is an impressive number!) whom you miss even today, and of course the wonderful Morse, who is still such a presence in your life even if not physically.
My OH went to the "wake" for our family friend today, who had passed away a few months ago in the lower 48. It was so hard to see OH tearing up at the loss all over again, especially as many at the wake mentioned that our friend spoke of him often and with great affection. It brought it all back for him and he is having a hard time coping.
No one questions the loss of friend or family when human...and no one should question the need to grieve, even extensively, for the friends who have no voices...and yet say so much to our hearts.
((((((((((((((((Huge hugs)))))))))))))))))
You are always in my thoughts, Jane. xxxxxxxx