There's a huge bunny shaped hole in the kitchen
I woke at 0500 and couldn't go back to sleep as I was thinking about them outside in the cold.
I usually adopt a needy bun when I lose one but I know that that would be madness with the state of my finances and I won't be that irresponsible. Am wondering about maybe fostering but am unsure if any of the local rescues do fostering any more. I fostered once for Cat and Rabbit Rescue but I have a feeling they discontinued the scheme.
I am usually sure I've made the right decision but it was less clear cut this time - Hovis could have had treatment, although the vet said the outlook was not good. Cherry struggled so much as a tripod I didn't want another bun to go through that and Hovis was not happy and had started to lose interest in his food. John had said he didn't think amputation was an option for Hovis when he last saw him.
I know that Hovis should have gone to the vet sooner. When I did take him the vet said it was a sore hock, gave me antibiotics and suggested I changed his flooring, which I did. I was so busy with Cherry and then went into hospital so didn't take Hovis back as soon as I should have done. Gem kindly took him for me once she realised he wasn't using his rear leg. By then he had developed an abscess. It didn't respond to treatment sadly.
I feel I've let them both down. Cherry was so brave throughout her illness and neither of them ever tried to bite me - not once, despite all the hands on nursing I had to do. They were gorgeous rabbits and I hope they are happy now at the Bridge. I do believe in an afterlife for animals as well as ourselves, which is helping a little.
Losing two in one day was hard. It happened with my cats - one was put to sleep and the other died naturally on the same day - but I've never had two animals put to sleep together before. It was overwhelming