chloemurray
Warren Veteran
I'm such a terrible owner. And no, before you say it, this thread is not for attention, I need genuine help.
This thread is going to contain a lot of things that are hard to admit, so please don't judge me too harshly.
Benji died in late October, and he was my soul bunny. Before that point, the rabbits were my world but after he died, I could barely look at them without bursting into tears. My brother looked after them for about a week. I pulled myself together and made the decision to bond Cupcake and Peanut, which went perfectly. During that process my boyfriend ended things with me and I was in a very dark place, I suppose in a way I still am. Nahla was bought for me by my boyfriend when we were together and again I found it very hard being around the bunnies. I know, I'm a total failure.
The bunnies were being cared for just the same as always, but my heart wasn't in it. When Peanut died, again I was struck with a feeling of failure, but getting Pud made me realise how special the bunnies are and how much they needed me to sort myself out, so things got much better.
But now things aren't going great again. I love the rabbits dearly but Pud's plums are nowhere to be found, so he can't be neutered yet and I'm going stir crazy with him living in my room, so much so that I have to put him in an indoor cage overnight just so I can sleep, which I feel terrible about. He has so many toys but all he wants to do is destroy everything, and because my room is bunny proofed he can't find anything to destroy, so he gets frustrated and tries to get out the room.
Cupcake is still alone because I can't neuter Pud yet, and Nahla is scared of me again because I barely have any time to spend with her. I'm actually such a **** owner, even cleaning out their hutches every few days has become a chore to me, I really think I have some form of depression or something.
I know no one can really say anything to help, but I feel better now I've admitted that I'm struggling.
This thread is going to contain a lot of things that are hard to admit, so please don't judge me too harshly.
Benji died in late October, and he was my soul bunny. Before that point, the rabbits were my world but after he died, I could barely look at them without bursting into tears. My brother looked after them for about a week. I pulled myself together and made the decision to bond Cupcake and Peanut, which went perfectly. During that process my boyfriend ended things with me and I was in a very dark place, I suppose in a way I still am. Nahla was bought for me by my boyfriend when we were together and again I found it very hard being around the bunnies. I know, I'm a total failure.
The bunnies were being cared for just the same as always, but my heart wasn't in it. When Peanut died, again I was struck with a feeling of failure, but getting Pud made me realise how special the bunnies are and how much they needed me to sort myself out, so things got much better.
But now things aren't going great again. I love the rabbits dearly but Pud's plums are nowhere to be found, so he can't be neutered yet and I'm going stir crazy with him living in my room, so much so that I have to put him in an indoor cage overnight just so I can sleep, which I feel terrible about. He has so many toys but all he wants to do is destroy everything, and because my room is bunny proofed he can't find anything to destroy, so he gets frustrated and tries to get out the room.
Cupcake is still alone because I can't neuter Pud yet, and Nahla is scared of me again because I barely have any time to spend with her. I'm actually such a **** owner, even cleaning out their hutches every few days has become a chore to me, I really think I have some form of depression or something.
I know no one can really say anything to help, but I feel better now I've admitted that I'm struggling.