Sakura6267
Warren Scout
It was so quick and horrible. I was syringe feeding him and I picked him up to bring him back downstairs. He almost jumped over my shoulder, and I reached up to grab him. When I did, I heard a loud snap and knew his leg was broken. He jumps like this often, and I didn't grab him that hard, just to prevent him from flying over my shoulder, so I can't understand why his leg would break. I just can't understand what happened. He didn't even jump that much, just a little jump and his leg was broken! He's jumped much more before and didn't break anything, why now? I rushed him to our local vet who confirmed that his femur was broken. The doctor immediately told me that he was not a candidate for bone surgery because he was already so sick with his dental problems. He was in such severe pain yesterday and the day before that I had to bring him in to get a special pain relief injection. He wouldn't eat or drink anything on his own since Monday afternoon and I had to syringe him Critical Care. It took him such a long time to wake up from his tooth burring on Tuesday, never had it taken that long before. And after that he was in more pain than ever even with the Metacam. He wasn't his happy go lucky self at all anymore. He would just sit hunched up. When the vet told me it was best to have him put to sleep because he wouldn't survive the surgery, I just broke down. I never had to make the decision to put a pet to sleep before in my life, and I just couldn't do it. I know it was selfish, but I had to get a second opinion and rushed him to the vet in the city where there was a rabbit expert doctor. She gave me the same diagnosis as my local vet, saying even if he survived the surgery, he would not be able to recover and die from the pain after. She gave him a 10% survival rate for the surgery. He had already been hard to wake up after being on GA for just 15 minutes, he would never survive a whole hour. She showed me the x-ray and he didn't just have a break, the bone was actually splintering and she said it would just keep cracking like that and his leg would have to be amputated which would require another surgery if he survived the first one. I had to decide right there and then because she told me the leg would be causing him unbearable pain soon and they couldn't just leave him like that. I decided to have him put to sleep at my local vet so at least he would be close to home. It took 45 minutes to get back, and I held him in my arms the whole way. This was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and I've never been so sad in my life. The people at my local vet were so kind and understanding. They knew exactly how much I loved this little bunny. He was my baby. I just can't stop crying. The pain is unbearable. I just can't stand it! I have to clean up his cage today. It's too painful even walking past the room he lived in, and it's worse seeing the cage. I always see him hopping around all happy everytime I look at it, and I see him when I close my eyes. I hardly slept last night, I can't eat, I feel so alone and the sadness is overwhelming me. This little bunny was my life. He brought me so much joy. He was so special. Why did he have to die this way? I knew the dental disease he had was serious and he would eventually die from it, but this happened too fast and I feel so shocked. I also feel so guilty. Maybe I should have tried to put him through surgery. Maybe a miracle would have happened and he would have made it and recovered. At least I wouldn't have had to be the one giving them permission to end his precious little life. God I miss him so much. I just can't cope with this pain. I feel like my whole world has ended. He has been with me for over 7 years. He was my constant companion. I don't know how I'm going to live without him. It hurts so much. There's just nothing that can ease this pain. My heart is so broken I doubt it will ever mend. Goodbye my sweet little Yuki-chan. I know you're happy in heaven, but I miss you so much.
