Thank you for the support.
I don't expect any further replies and didn't want to keep posting about it but I'm just thinking about him all the time, no one who I am physically with understands why I am so upset. My partner was upset and had to leave the room whilst we was at the vets but he's just talking about bonding beano and Jake. Of course I don't want beano to be lonely but its beano and Gordon, not beano and Jake that are supposed to be together. I've come to stay at my parents for a few nights to stop me staring at his stuff but now I'm just looking at all the photos I have of him up in my old bedroom. Even though for that day I knew it was coming I cant believe he's gone.