I've been working long hours so hadn't picked Gemma's ashes up and as I knew I would be passing nearby today when I collected Violet I arranged to call in and get them. Until Friday when I get paid, I have no money to get any more petrol so I am having to be very careful.
It felt a bit odd having Violet in the carrier and Gemma's ashes on the front seat together (my car only has two seats) but I did chat to Gemma a lot about George being lonely in the time we had together before she was cremated.
I feel really conflicted today. I am upset and sad that my gorgeous Gemma is now only ashes and a little fur that the undertaker cut off for me but I am also pleased that Violet seems such a lovely bunny and that George will hopefully soon be more himself again.
I have all the boxes of ashes in a drawer in my filing cabinet (they were on a shelf in my study but I thought they may freak out my clients) but I can't put Gemma in there yet so she is sitting on my desk.
I just hope Gemma understands that I am not replacing her - nobun could do that - and that I still love her very much.
This probably makes no sense at all but I needed to write down how I am feeling.
It felt a bit odd having Violet in the carrier and Gemma's ashes on the front seat together (my car only has two seats) but I did chat to Gemma a lot about George being lonely in the time we had together before she was cremated.
I feel really conflicted today. I am upset and sad that my gorgeous Gemma is now only ashes and a little fur that the undertaker cut off for me but I am also pleased that Violet seems such a lovely bunny and that George will hopefully soon be more himself again.
I have all the boxes of ashes in a drawer in my filing cabinet (they were on a shelf in my study but I thought they may freak out my clients) but I can't put Gemma in there yet so she is sitting on my desk.
I just hope Gemma understands that I am not replacing her - nobun could do that - and that I still love her very much.
This probably makes no sense at all but I needed to write down how I am feeling.