Finally brought myself around a little,
Jemimah is doing ok, I showed her Brian and she groomed him for a long while, I think she understands what has happened.
It just feels so wrong, tonight at feeding time, It was so sad to see Lola and Max eating away together and Jemimah now all alone.
I do eventually want to get her a new friend, but it's just so raw and I don't want it to seem like Brian meant nothing because he meant the world. Brian and Jemimah were like a jigsaw they went together perfectly, I didn't even have to bond them properly. I just hope she'll recover.
As for me and Jay well we're doing ok, we have to, but of course it's hard and it just doesn't feel real, like a nightmare. I want my Brian back
. I loved him so much, he was only 1 year old. At least I know he had a good life with a lovely wife, he didn't deserve this.
Thank you all so much, the support is immense, thank you.
xx
I will sort Rainbow Bridge for my little man tomorrow, I don't think I can bring myself to right now.