I know what you mean. Today is my birthday as well, so I'm always going to associate losing Scooby with it. It was quite a traumatic loss as he had an operation to remove a bladder stone and was doing quite well, but his kidneys failed a few hours later and we lost him. We'd stayed up with him, syringing recovery food into him which he was fighting against and it was awful, I feel really guilty about this and I hope he knew we were just trying to help him. I keep crying tonight which is not a nice way to end your birthday but sometimes it makes me feel better to wallow at bit
. Rosie is doing her best to cheer me up though, she keeps going behind the curtains then running backwards, only on her back feet, which is very funny