im really struggling at the moment, every time Pearl makes a snorting noise i wonder if its her lungs filled up with water already. we fight daily over the drugs she hates. but amazingly she doesnt realise shes got a poorly heart . as evil as this sounds im struggling to be in the same room as her right now as i just end up in tears thinking about the whatifs of tomorrow. i really beleived Alvin would go first with his tummy but now i know its pearls time thats limited im struggling because how will i manage to find Alvin a better/equal wifebun to pearl, hes not the easiest rabbit to pair up
is this unnatural/shallow to be saying goodbye to her before shes even starting to show shes really poorly???
sorry everyone who has actually lost a bun this week/month, but im tired today and it always makes me feel a bit pants about the future.
we are due to go to scotland for xmas, what if she dies because of the journey, itd be my fault boarding is a deffo no Alvin was demonic after the last time for well over a month im not sure her heart could take all that humping :?
how do you put the thoughts out of your head everyone, i think i prefered being stressed over the burgulars coming back to this!!! its almost been 4 weeks now and each day seems to get harder instead of me reaching an acceptance :evil::evil:
is this unnatural/shallow to be saying goodbye to her before shes even starting to show shes really poorly???
sorry everyone who has actually lost a bun this week/month, but im tired today and it always makes me feel a bit pants about the future.
we are due to go to scotland for xmas, what if she dies because of the journey, itd be my fault boarding is a deffo no Alvin was demonic after the last time for well over a month im not sure her heart could take all that humping :?
how do you put the thoughts out of your head everyone, i think i prefered being stressed over the burgulars coming back to this!!! its almost been 4 weeks now and each day seems to get harder instead of me reaching an acceptance :evil::evil: