sparklefairy
Wise Old Thumper
As we lit up our candles tonight to remember Harriet and our love ones over the bridge my thoughts came to you Bilbo, my little man. I always knew from the moment we met back in 1997, this was going to be a very special friendship.
You were lost and alone, abandoned in a locked hutch, I still can't belive how anyone could have left you behind like that. I was also alone and confused and really needed a friend in my teenage years. I took you home and we bonded straight away, I'll never forget how you skipped around me in my bedroom, it was if you were telling me " thank you!" we spent many hours together and you became my best friend.
You made me laugh when you threw your toys around, and skipped around with the toy piglet in your mouth. You comforted me by snuggling up close when I was feeling sad. You were there though it all, a lot of the time you were the only one there for me, the only one I could talk to. You saw me cry over a thousand times, you were there when friends came and went from my life. You were the one thing that got me through much heartache. You saw and heard things no one should ever see but you still remained calm, loyal and comforting,even through allthe shouting and screaming in our other house, before we came back home. You know, I sometimes wonder if you were really a bunny, I used to wonder if you were a little angel in a bunny suit you didn't act like a bunny, you seemed to know and understand so much more.
When Freeda was brought home, bless her, she was abused and broken we could only offer her a home for such a short time, nasty humans had hurt her so much but you were so gentle to that little girl, you stayed by her side until the end. You were such a comfort to her, and now you are together.
Then in 2004, a baby Gypsy came into our lives, another unwanted soul but she came to the right place. She was confused and frightened having had no human contact, but again, you were the big gentle giant and evenchally she trusted you you taught her so much. You stayed by her side, you looked after her and even when she grew up into a confident young lady you were still gentle and loving, even though her crazy teenage stage when she pulled out your fur. I know you loved her so much. I also know that she gave you a new lease of life, even if you were only together one year.
Oh Bilbo, how I wish we could have saved you. We can only guess your age, you were already well passed one year when you came to me, you were with me until june 23rd 2005. I wish I could have done more, you really shouldn't have died in such a horrible way, not my lovely Bilbo, how could it happen to you? I still cry now, it still hurts. I just don't understand. You were clean, our room was clean but some how that fly still got you. It happened so fast, you were fine when we cuddled the night before, you were still healthy, but the next morning you were hunched up. I thought it was the heat. I went to run you a cool bath, then I saw what that ******* fly had done to you!! flystrike I wrapped you up in a towel, I rang the emergency vet, she even stopped sunbathing in her garden for us!. She tried to get all those nasty things off you. I'm sorry that opperation hurt you so much, I didn't know how much pain you would be in but I tried to save you, I couldn't let you go. You wouldn't eat, you were very sick. I rushed you back to the vets and they had to keep you in, your poor tummy had stoped working. We tried to keep you with us, but you left us during the night at the vets.
Bilbo, I'm so sorry I put you through all that pain. I'm sorry I wasn't with you. I hate my self because you died all alone in a strange place. I wish you knew we tried to save you. I didn't abandon you in that place, I thought you was coming home. You had been there for me all these years and I couldn't even be there for you in your hour of need but during that night while you were at the vets and I was at home I knew you had left me. I woke up crying and I couldn't stop crying. I'll never forget that feeling of dread going to the vets knowing what they were going to tell me. Even though I knew, I still fell down on the floor crying and crying, I wasn't even aware of the full waiting room. The vet drove me home with you, you were all wrapped up in a towel. I sat in the house alone. I had to look at you to say good-bye, but when I saw you, I knew it wasn't you any more, you had gone and your body was the empty set of clothes you no longer needed.
It's been so hard without you. Gypsy took your passing very hard. She was on her own for 5 months. I felt strange about getting her a friend, but decided that she shouldn't have to be alone. I brought Storm home for her, I often wonder what you would think of him, he's a crazy young rabbit, very funny and naughty I'm looking after him and Gypsy, you should see Gypsy now, she's so beautiful!
We still miss you very much and you'll always be in my heart. Here are some pictures I want the whole world to see, they can see how hansome you are. There's even one of you with Freeda, poor little girl had so much pain in her life. Please tell her I'm sorry I couldn't do more to help her
and I wrote this for you
For Bilbo
I hear your whisper on the wind
Your footsteps in the dark
I hold on to your memory
You still live on inside my heart
I close my eyes
and you are there
I hold on for a while
as I need you near
It hurts to know
That you are gone
But deep inside I know
You must move on
Spirits never die
They just grow wings
Away they fly
Like a bird of freedom
Away you flew
But part of me
Will always stay with you
You will always be here
From the memories we shared
As long as you are in my heart
You will always be near
xxxxx
You were lost and alone, abandoned in a locked hutch, I still can't belive how anyone could have left you behind like that. I was also alone and confused and really needed a friend in my teenage years. I took you home and we bonded straight away, I'll never forget how you skipped around me in my bedroom, it was if you were telling me " thank you!" we spent many hours together and you became my best friend.
You made me laugh when you threw your toys around, and skipped around with the toy piglet in your mouth. You comforted me by snuggling up close when I was feeling sad. You were there though it all, a lot of the time you were the only one there for me, the only one I could talk to. You saw me cry over a thousand times, you were there when friends came and went from my life. You were the one thing that got me through much heartache. You saw and heard things no one should ever see but you still remained calm, loyal and comforting,even through allthe shouting and screaming in our other house, before we came back home. You know, I sometimes wonder if you were really a bunny, I used to wonder if you were a little angel in a bunny suit you didn't act like a bunny, you seemed to know and understand so much more.
When Freeda was brought home, bless her, she was abused and broken we could only offer her a home for such a short time, nasty humans had hurt her so much but you were so gentle to that little girl, you stayed by her side until the end. You were such a comfort to her, and now you are together.
Then in 2004, a baby Gypsy came into our lives, another unwanted soul but she came to the right place. She was confused and frightened having had no human contact, but again, you were the big gentle giant and evenchally she trusted you you taught her so much. You stayed by her side, you looked after her and even when she grew up into a confident young lady you were still gentle and loving, even though her crazy teenage stage when she pulled out your fur. I know you loved her so much. I also know that she gave you a new lease of life, even if you were only together one year.
Oh Bilbo, how I wish we could have saved you. We can only guess your age, you were already well passed one year when you came to me, you were with me until june 23rd 2005. I wish I could have done more, you really shouldn't have died in such a horrible way, not my lovely Bilbo, how could it happen to you? I still cry now, it still hurts. I just don't understand. You were clean, our room was clean but some how that fly still got you. It happened so fast, you were fine when we cuddled the night before, you were still healthy, but the next morning you were hunched up. I thought it was the heat. I went to run you a cool bath, then I saw what that ******* fly had done to you!! flystrike I wrapped you up in a towel, I rang the emergency vet, she even stopped sunbathing in her garden for us!. She tried to get all those nasty things off you. I'm sorry that opperation hurt you so much, I didn't know how much pain you would be in but I tried to save you, I couldn't let you go. You wouldn't eat, you were very sick. I rushed you back to the vets and they had to keep you in, your poor tummy had stoped working. We tried to keep you with us, but you left us during the night at the vets.
Bilbo, I'm so sorry I put you through all that pain. I'm sorry I wasn't with you. I hate my self because you died all alone in a strange place. I wish you knew we tried to save you. I didn't abandon you in that place, I thought you was coming home. You had been there for me all these years and I couldn't even be there for you in your hour of need but during that night while you were at the vets and I was at home I knew you had left me. I woke up crying and I couldn't stop crying. I'll never forget that feeling of dread going to the vets knowing what they were going to tell me. Even though I knew, I still fell down on the floor crying and crying, I wasn't even aware of the full waiting room. The vet drove me home with you, you were all wrapped up in a towel. I sat in the house alone. I had to look at you to say good-bye, but when I saw you, I knew it wasn't you any more, you had gone and your body was the empty set of clothes you no longer needed.
It's been so hard without you. Gypsy took your passing very hard. She was on her own for 5 months. I felt strange about getting her a friend, but decided that she shouldn't have to be alone. I brought Storm home for her, I often wonder what you would think of him, he's a crazy young rabbit, very funny and naughty I'm looking after him and Gypsy, you should see Gypsy now, she's so beautiful!
We still miss you very much and you'll always be in my heart. Here are some pictures I want the whole world to see, they can see how hansome you are. There's even one of you with Freeda, poor little girl had so much pain in her life. Please tell her I'm sorry I couldn't do more to help her
and I wrote this for you
For Bilbo
I hear your whisper on the wind
Your footsteps in the dark
I hold on to your memory
You still live on inside my heart
I close my eyes
and you are there
I hold on for a while
as I need you near
It hurts to know
That you are gone
But deep inside I know
You must move on
Spirits never die
They just grow wings
Away they fly
Like a bird of freedom
Away you flew
But part of me
Will always stay with you
You will always be here
From the memories we shared
As long as you are in my heart
You will always be near
xxxxx