Just brought a neighbours rabbits to a rescue..

[Preitler]

...and I feel odd.

This has a long history, an old guy, not the smartest, bred for meat there for 2 or 3 decades, his hutches in a shed that belonged to a house a construction company used as housing for its workers. That house got sold 2 years ago, it took 1 year for him to stop breeding there but the kids of the new owners wanted to keep 2 of the rabbits. Two intact males, now 8-10yo and 3-4yo. When that old guy was breeding there conditions always were bad, authorities were notified more than once and there were fines but that didn't change anything, there were other, social, circumstances that were taken into account - which, in the bigger picture was ok. At least the rabbits were fed properly.

Anyway, those two rabbits stayed in those small boxes, they have never in their life ever stretched out, or took more than one short hop. and now feeding also detoriated massively, too little rather bad hay, kitchen scraps and moldy bread, the pellets and some handfulls of grass now and then were the best they got. Not bad people, but just not knowing anything about rabbits, and not animal people at all. And they already got tired of the rabbits.

So I offered to list them on the internet, and look for a better place. Someone pointed me at a rabbit rescue society, I contacted those, they called around and found a shelter they trust that offered to take them in. Today I borrowed a second pet carrier , picked up the rabbits and drove them to the shelter.

So, although I didn't just dump the rabbits on them but asked beforehand, and everyone involved was ok with it, I still feel like I'm selfish, kind of. I mean, I'm not entirely sure of my own motivation, well, I felt so bad for those two rabbits every day when I passed them on my way to work, so, was that all juat about my feelings? Argh.
Also, there is this Karma thing, not the religious interpretation, but the stupid "Karma is a *****" thing. A way of thinking I can't shake off, everytime something good happens to me, or I allow something good to happen to me, there's a sucker punch delivered right away. Go to a festival - get Covid. Buy the car I want (tiny electric pick up truck, damaged by an accident)- waiting to get it repaired for more than half a year. Going to another festival - getting notified that they just, after 7 months, discovered that they can't repair it, write off. Always a backlash. Going to a family meeting, just a nice afternoon - of course the train home got canceled. And so on.
Got fed up and bought a used car, that was a major breach of the ceasefire I had with ***** Karma, I don't deserve that kind of resources and convinience..., sure enough a tooth started acting up next day, dentist insists to pull it, 3 more weeks for the next free slot and to anticipate that, and two days later something else popped up, literally, in a place where the sun doesn't shine, good thing is you can use Dr. Google to pick the most favourable diagnosis and hope for the best, might heal up in a few weeks. Nice word for Scramble anyway. 2 years ago I actually considered going to the doctor after that chainsaw accident, but in the end I fixed it with band aid, bandages, duct tape and superglue, so my threshold to bother anyone with my problems is rather high, I guess. Haven't been to a hairdresser for a quarter of a century because I can't stand the closeness, the attention, taking up someones time exclusivly, that's for normal people...

Oh boy. Sorry that went off rail somewhat, but anyway, as it is, you are the only people I can share that level of my thoughts with. I feel odd about what I did today, kind of in Limbo, either waiting for consequences or ***** Karma backlash...

 

[Shimmer]

You have done right by those rabbits - they will get better care now, so thank you for making the effort.

 

[William]

That was the right thing to do - the rabbits will have better housing and food now, attention from the rescue people (if they like attention) and any medical problems they could have will be addressed. And that's just now, of course when they're adopted I imagine it'll be even better.

I think it's especially nice for the older boy that's 8-10 years- he'll have the chance to actually hop around and eat yummy food and treats

Karma in this case should work the opposite - you did a good thing, so a good thing will happen

 

[bunny momma]

You did good by taking the rabbits to the rescue.
Your events sound less like karma and more like life is not fair. Sending you positive vibes.

 

[joey&boo]

Absolutely the right thing to do & well done for doing it. I agree with bunny momma, I can identify with some of your feelings about not using up resources as I operate like that. I had a much needed dental appointment recently & feel so guilty about the poor dentist that has to work on my mouth. In reality I know we are all equally worthy of accessing whatever services we need. If you need medical attention I'd urge you to get it...I hate to think of this becoming so entrenched that one day you could be in a life or death situation & still clinging to the I'm not worthy mindset. You are

 

[Preitler]

Thank you for your responses. Really, that means a lot to me. I don't have many social interactions irl, that all was leaning out quite far. Tried to ignore it, but there was instant Karma backlash. We had pretty lose rules about alcohol at work, and for me it was very helpful to be able to vent off after some beers now and then, that's gone, my only chance to talk about my problems to people in real life. Everyone is treading on thin ice now, and sober I would never bother anyone with my brainsalad.
I would need that now, desperatly, I'm out of energy, I'm so tired, no way to at least give a hint that I'm not ok. I would still have 55 days vacation this year - but as always, no chance taking that, too much work. spent this weekend to clean at least one room, to be able to let the chimney sweeper in on tuesday, not perfect, still living in a human sized rabbit hutch...

I had advertised those two rabbits on the internet for some weeks prior, one woman called but she still had troubles because her pen was destroyed by the floods, escaped rabbits still out there, and foxes and hogs suddenly very close by, she would have taken one of the rabbits but I talked her out of it for now, first thing was to settle down things.

Called her yesterday, 3 weeks later, to tell her where she can find the rabbits if she wants to get one, what a nice person to chat with about rabbits, a joy to see that there are other people that like keeping them in similiar ways I do, and just enjoy all the rabbitness.