bunny coco help with loss

[alexialex]

advice with dealing with loss

my bunny passed today and i really cant cope. he is my only bunny and he is my everything. all day everyday we were always together. i am really emotionally attached to him. i had a lot of anxiety even if i left him for a few hours and everytime i was away the only thing i would look foward to was coming back to him.

to keep it short he had issues with his teeth for a while. we went to the went for checks up, for xray and more multiple times a month. there was a recurring issue that didn't go away with any treatment or antibiotics. so they decided that the best chance and way to go is to remove one of his front teeth. he was not a sickly rabbit though he was always up and playing and flopping and hooking. he was really resilient and hes been through a lot more than any bunny should go. but he was still happy and cheerful. he would have been 7 years old next month and he is a holland lop.

we go, we do blood test and every precaution before this they promise us everything is going to be okay. and then a few hours later they call us to tell us that up until the end everything was fine and then his heart just gave up. that they tried everything and they got no response.

i really can not deal with it and i feel like i failed him so bad. i dont know how to not blame myself. i feel the worst ive ever felt in my life. i really did not want to leave him and i did not kiss him before leaving the vet before his surgery and my heart is so heavy with regret. how is possible that in the morning we were playing and now hes not here anymore. i can barely stand being in my room. i just keep imaginig how it was for him and i feel like throwing up. i dont have anyone to talk to and i dont know how to calm myself down. what can i do and what is there to do now i really need some advice on how to manage this i keep self inducing panic attacks because it keeps hitting me. i just wish i could get some reassurance that he is okay and more at ease now but my brain selfishly thinks he would have been better here with me still

 

[Cuthbert&Dillon]

I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I can not offer advice but can see you did so very much to help him.

 

[Pets mum]

I'm so very sorry to hear that you have lost your bunny, that must have been an awful shock for you. It's obvious he was very much loved, and cared for by you, I'm sure he knew that. Again, I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[bunny momma]

I am so very sorry for your loss. He had a loving home and excellent care and you are not to blame. Though from prior experience with loss, it can be hard to accept that reality.
You took the advice of the vet and tried to improve his quality of life.
Perhaps it would help you to write a tribute where you remember the happy times you and your bunny enjoyed over the years.
While no other bunny can ever replace your beloved bunny; I hope that in time you will be able to open your heart to another bunny who deserves your love.

 

[Zoobec]

I’m so sorry for your loss you did everything you could for him and he had the best life possible.You should not blame yourself, you did what the vet advised. Sending hugs to you.

 

[joey&boo]

Its tough losing a bunny friend, really tough. I'm so sorry you lost him. I understand how all consuming that loss feels. Guilt is a normal part of grief but you have nothing to blame yourself for. He was clearly very loved & you got him the vet attention he needed. It wouldn't have been fair to leave him in dental pain. Its just a really sad outcome & likely your vet feels rotten about it too.

How to cope? it depends on the person but I find talking helps, collecting memories, scrap booking...going for walks & allowing yourself to feel as you feel. He sounds like he was a right character , brave & resilient. When you feel able maybe you could write him a tribute on our Rainbow Bridge section. For your bun it is better that he didn't suffer, that he was happy & playing in the morning though I get that losing him so unexpectedly is really hard to process.