Hi Jane,
I really understand how you feel, and I'm so sorry that you lost your wonderful mum too. It's 3 years since I lost my wonderful mum to Non Hodgkinsons, only 5 weeks after she became ill!
I wake up thinking of mum, I go to sleep thinking of mum and I often dream about her too. When I'm stuck in traffic going to work, I daydream about her, never a day goes by without my mum being on my mind. Somebody once said, you never get over losing your mum and I must admit, I truly believe that.
However, I wrote the following poem for my fantastic mum, and despite missing my mum terribly, I know that she would want me to be as happy as I possibly can be, just like your mum would want you to be too. I remember when mum lost her mum (my gran), mum had to carry on for us kids. Sadly, it's the price we pay for the unconditional love they give us, and for making us into the people we are, but we wouldn't have it any other way. Some people sadly never know such love.
Mum
I always knew the day would come
When I would lose my wonderful mum
Taken so cruelly it broke my heart
Saying goodbye tore me apart
No closer a mum and daughter could be
The warmth and love was plain to see!
But now the pain won't go away
As I close my eyes to another day!
A new day dawns and I think of mum
I feel so empty, lonely and numb!
My sadness lingers and refuses to heal
I cannot help the hurt I feel!
The day passes by, the ache doesn't fade
I recall special memories mum and I made!
No one can ever take them away
They're in my heart forever to stay!
One thing I'm sure of, she'd want me to be
The daughter mum knew, fun and carefree!
Etched on my mind is the phrase she would say:
Smile at the past, but live for today!
I was so lucky to have such a mum
Honest and caring, charming and fun!
Always so bubbly and full of zest
My mum unique, quite simply the best!
Best Wishes
Carol[/i]