She didn't make it

She had begun eating for herself and pooing again during the day, but the bloating and mass remained. The vet suspected she had a tumour. They sedated her to put a tube down to relief the gas build up (I think) but there was blood, so indicated there was damage. She would have had a scan today to find out what was going on, but after this discovery the vet said she wouldn't make it and we should let her go.

I feel distraught, she was only around 3 years old and fine the day before. She was so beautiful and gentle and I had so many plans for her. I only had 9 months to show her what life could be like outside a tiny hutch, being used for breeding. But never got to show her what having a friend would be like.

I'll never know the exact cause, but if it was ovarian cancer then I could have prevented it by having her spayed months ago. We were just never able to free up the funds and it kept getting put off.

I didn't even get to say goodbye. She had been in the surgery since Tuesday evening and yesterday morning she was quite stable. I was so busy all day and thinking well 'no news is good news' at 7pm she was being transferred between locations in the pet ambulance (due to night cover) and then late last night... I really thought she might get through this.

I've literally cried almost constantly since, keep breaking down. Couldn't speak on the phone to the vet and I had to call work today to say I couldn't make it and cried to them too. I worry they might think she was 'just a rabbit' but they are like my babies. My dd is so upset too, she's already seeing the school counsellor because she gets anxious about school etc.

Thank you for all the messages x