Hoppin mad
Firstly I share in how you feel. I think Lea-anne has summed things up nicely. We lost our 2 bonded buns about 6 weeks ago. The loss of our male - Ben, hit me so very hard and I know exactly how you feel. Like you, I am still struggling with the loss and feel guilty that both buns left us so quickly. Firstly, how you feel is perfectly normal - it shows that you care and you care deeply. It shows you had a bond that every other rabbit lover on this forum shares and knows. That is why you feel the way you do. Every day is a reminder and every day you think about them. And that's ok to do that. The love and the care that you shared with your rabbits also becomes your strength and whilst you should never forget your rabbits, thinking of them and remembering them embeds them into your memory more.
Sharing how you feel - as you have done, also helps because you suddenly don't feel alone, you don't feel that it's just you going through it. And in a way, you can get comfort from that thought. The forum members are wonderful helpful people and I've found that through looking and reading on here. I still have days when I cry about my recent loss and I feel sad. There's no timescale for getting over it. You will do so when you are ready.
Moving forward - I think the memory book is a great idea. Even put photos onto a cd or something. I've also considered the possibility of getting an artist to do a painting - oil or watercolour of my 2 buns - which would be a bit more of a permanent reminder and something special and unique and something that would hold a special place on the wall in the room for you. I've found artists on the internet and prices vary up to about 4-500 pounds. Personally it's something I will try and do next year - when I am ready. I also have considered buying a special plant - maybe one with a name that represents Chester. Maybe a favorite colour or something, and plant it in Chesters memory. We'll be doing that in the spring for our 2.
And finally, I would also advocate looking for a new bun. Whilst he or she will never replace Chester - and you're not doing it for that reason, but you feel an emptiness and that should be filled with another bun. We adopted 2 buns since losing ours and whilst they cannot and will not replace the 2 we lost, I feel I'm giving something back by helping 2 bunnies have a love fillied, fulfilled free and happy life. It takes my mind off things and although the 2 new buns are very different in personality to the ones we lost, they are unique in their own way and we are giving them a new safe home where they will eventually bond and be safe and happy.
Grieving is perfectly natural and there is no instant cure. I wish our buns didn't leave us but sadly they do and that's just what life is. I wish I could change it but I can't.
I do hope that you find a way to move forward and hope that you can take some help from my comments and also those from others. What we all share is that we know exactly how you feel. Hugs - craig x