Thanks Omi, she had the cutest little face. I think i will miss that the most. It feels like it should not have happened, but it did. I'm sure im not the first or last person to feel this way and my heart goes out to anyone in a similar situation. I will of course keep in touch and send you guys news of atashi and let you know how he is doing when he gets a new friend. we are taking him to the vet tonight just to get him checked over and make sure he doesn't have anything underlying going on in this time that is already hard for him.