Gem in pembrokeshire
Warren Scout
I'm feeling really overwhelmed with grief at the moment. We had to say goodbye to our best friend Nibbs.
She suffered with heart disease and despite us trying with medication she did not respond. Unfortunately I have never believed in euthanasia but i'm afraid that we were pushed into a corner, she was so tired and struggled with every breath that her suffering made us seriously consider it. She wouldn't let go, she didn't sleep and lost so much weight.
The night prior was horrific, instead of being our girl she was somewhere else. She held her nose in the air with her whole body contracting with every breath. I thought that we would loose her. But nibbs being nibbs she faught the whole night through. Although still struggleing in the morning she seemed much perkier.
We cuddled and cried all morning and made the journey to the vets. We wanted a miracle but there was nothing they could offer which would fix her. And as she hadn't responded to the medicine it was unlikely that she would respond to anything else. They were very sypathetic and gave us time to say goodbye. Afterwards we took her home and cried more.
I didn't want her to be forgotten and i would have preferred for her to have burried at home with us. But because our house was on the market we felt that moving was abandoning her. So we decided to take her home to my mum and dads. She was born there and that's where her mum and dad are burried. We bought two plants, one of which because it resembled the colour of her coat, a lavender. We wrote a note and placed her with her favourite treat and a her towel to keep her warm.
We are still finding the decision we made difficult. I don't know if I'll ever feel okay about it. It's like it's our fault even though we know it's not. She was so young, she was our girl and the reason for us having a passion for rabbits.
So good night babe, behave yourself! And I hope I'll see you again someday. Love forever and always, Gem and Kev xxx
Nibbs 25/04/03 - 16/02/07
She suffered with heart disease and despite us trying with medication she did not respond. Unfortunately I have never believed in euthanasia but i'm afraid that we were pushed into a corner, she was so tired and struggled with every breath that her suffering made us seriously consider it. She wouldn't let go, she didn't sleep and lost so much weight.
The night prior was horrific, instead of being our girl she was somewhere else. She held her nose in the air with her whole body contracting with every breath. I thought that we would loose her. But nibbs being nibbs she faught the whole night through. Although still struggleing in the morning she seemed much perkier.
We cuddled and cried all morning and made the journey to the vets. We wanted a miracle but there was nothing they could offer which would fix her. And as she hadn't responded to the medicine it was unlikely that she would respond to anything else. They were very sypathetic and gave us time to say goodbye. Afterwards we took her home and cried more.
I didn't want her to be forgotten and i would have preferred for her to have burried at home with us. But because our house was on the market we felt that moving was abandoning her. So we decided to take her home to my mum and dads. She was born there and that's where her mum and dad are burried. We bought two plants, one of which because it resembled the colour of her coat, a lavender. We wrote a note and placed her with her favourite treat and a her towel to keep her warm.
We are still finding the decision we made difficult. I don't know if I'll ever feel okay about it. It's like it's our fault even though we know it's not. She was so young, she was our girl and the reason for us having a passion for rabbits.
So good night babe, behave yourself! And I hope I'll see you again someday. Love forever and always, Gem and Kev xxx
Nibbs 25/04/03 - 16/02/07