bunny momma
Wise Old Thumper
It was difficult enough to lose my sweet lap bunny Madelyn two weeks ago, yet I cannot help to feel like I am a failure at being a bunny parent due to the lose of four bunnies, none of them old, since December 2018. First I lost my adorable Evan, the tiniest adult bunny I ever saw, in December 2018, which was followed by the loss of his entertaining brother Dash in September 2019, and exactly one week later the lose of my friendly Gemini also in September 2019, and then July 24, 2020 my sweet and gorgeous lap bunny, Madelyn.
The last time I lost multiple bunnies in a short time they were all elderly bunnies who where with me over a decade each. This latest situation is also unlike the time I lost multiple bunnies within weeks from the same pathogen.
I feel like I am doing something wrong and I am worried that if something happens I will lose my mini rex Heidi (age 6) and dwarf Raven (age 5).
In recent years I am trying to do all the right things with better diets and exercise, plus close monitoring of behavior, eating, drinking, peeing, and pooing. Yet I keep ruminating on what I could have done differently that would have resulted in my bunny friends being with me today.
It is hard for me to make sense of these latest loses. When I lost Dash and Evan I told myself it was because they had chronic digestive issues and each day they survived was a victory. Then I lost Gemini and thought I may not have noticed he was ill soon enough because I was so distraught over losing Dash the week before, though he deserved better. Now I lost Madelyn and wonder if she would still be with me if I insisted on blood work hours before her quick downhill descent when she had the X-rays/dental.
How can I get my confidence back?
The last time I lost multiple bunnies in a short time they were all elderly bunnies who where with me over a decade each. This latest situation is also unlike the time I lost multiple bunnies within weeks from the same pathogen.
I feel like I am doing something wrong and I am worried that if something happens I will lose my mini rex Heidi (age 6) and dwarf Raven (age 5).
In recent years I am trying to do all the right things with better diets and exercise, plus close monitoring of behavior, eating, drinking, peeing, and pooing. Yet I keep ruminating on what I could have done differently that would have resulted in my bunny friends being with me today.
It is hard for me to make sense of these latest loses. When I lost Dash and Evan I told myself it was because they had chronic digestive issues and each day they survived was a victory. Then I lost Gemini and thought I may not have noticed he was ill soon enough because I was so distraught over losing Dash the week before, though he deserved better. Now I lost Madelyn and wonder if she would still be with me if I insisted on blood work hours before her quick downhill descent when she had the X-rays/dental.
How can I get my confidence back?