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biscandmatt1
16-12-2016, 06:58 PM
since the shock and denial of losing bisc has worn off, i am left with the deepest sadness i have ever felt. i don't know what to do. people say it takes time to heal but i know this never will.

i have flashes of intense anger amongst the sadness. i can't believe how wrong i got things at the end. when it mattered the most, i let him down. i HATE myself for it.

i don't really know what i want anyone to say. but i know that at least on here people understand. and i've been avoiding 'talking' about it all. i can't even do his rainbow bridge tribute.

:cry:

Barn Yard Bunnies
16-12-2016, 07:26 PM
Gentle hugs xxx

Mackers
16-12-2016, 08:03 PM
This could be me talking about Meggie's death nearly 18 months ago. Yes, the initial shock and anger wears off but, like you, I still have an intense sadness and feelings of despair that I let her down when she needed me the most. It doesn't matter how many times people tell you it wasn't your fault and you did everything you could, nothing changes the fact that you feel huge guilt and it clings to you, dragging you down when you least expect it. I can now go a few days between bouts of tears but they're only ever millimetres from the surface, springing forth at the most inopportune moment. I totally feel your pain. Don't be afraid to sit down and sob - it does help. Don't be afraid to say their name - talking about them keeps their memory alive. Look at photos, talk to them, remember the good times. But most of all, be kind to yourself. Massive hugs xx

biscandmatt1
16-12-2016, 08:05 PM
Gentle hugs xxx

thank you x

biscandmatt1
16-12-2016, 08:13 PM
This could be me talking about Meggie's death nearly 18 months ago. Yes, the initial shock and anger wears off but, like you, I still have an intense sadness and feelings of despair that I let her down when she needed me the most. It doesn't matter how many times people tell you it wasn't your fault and you did everything you could, nothing changes the fact that you feel huge guilt and it clings to you, dragging you down when you least expect it. I can now go a few days between bouts of tears but they're only ever millimetres from the surface, springing forth at the most inopportune moment. I totally feel your pain. Don't be afraid to sit down and sob - it does help. Don't be afraid to say their name - talking about them keeps their memory alive. Look at photos, talk to them, remember the good times. But most of all, be kind to yourself. Massive hugs xx

thank you for this x

MightyMax
16-12-2016, 08:21 PM
since the shock and denial of losing bisc has worn off, i am left with the deepest sadness i have ever felt. i don't know what to do. people say it takes time to heal but i know this never will.

i have flashes of intense anger amongst the sadness. i can't believe how wrong i got things at the end. when it mattered the most, i let him down. i HATE myself for it.

i don't really know what i want anyone to say. but i know that at least on here people understand. and i've been avoiding 'talking' about it all. i can't even do his rainbow bridge tribute.

:cry:


Sending you love and hugs. You know I think of you a lot x

biscandmatt1
16-12-2016, 09:11 PM
Thank you. I just miss him so so much. My little soul mate x

daphnephoebe
16-12-2016, 09:41 PM
Sending you lots of hugs.

It's been a while since I lost my ferrets. All of them were my true loves and I still struggle when thinking about them. I'm never going to get over losing them, I'm always going to wish I done things differently but I hope when they see I have their pictures in my home, and a painting done by a friend displayed they'll understand I did my best. They'll understand I'll love them even after I've left this body.

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mini lop1
16-12-2016, 09:45 PM
Lots hugs xxx

Pets mum
16-12-2016, 09:46 PM
I'm so sorry, I really do feel for you. I lost my little Toffee in July, and I still feel guilty about letting him go, I keep asking myself "what if" or "if only", but we do the best that we can, at the time.
I've also never been able to post in rainbow bridge, maybe one day. What did help though, was writing everything down. I sat and wrote all about his life, right from when I first got him, and his sister. I wanted to be able to remember everything about him, the daft things he did, his cheeky antics, how he made me laugh out loud. I wrote about six sides of A4, just for me, no one else will read it, so that in years to come, I won't ever forget. I found it very therapeutic, and it keeps my memory of him alive.
Big hugs for you xxxxx

William
16-12-2016, 10:14 PM
This could be me talking about Meggie's death nearly 18 months ago. Yes, the initial shock and anger wears off but, like you, I still have an intense sadness and feelings of despair that I let her down when she needed me the most. It doesn't matter how many times people tell you it wasn't your fault and you did everything you could, nothing changes the fact that you feel huge guilt and it clings to you, dragging you down when you least expect it. I can now go a few days between bouts of tears but they're only ever millimetres from the surface, springing forth at the most inopportune moment. I totally feel your pain. Don't be afraid to sit down and sob - it does help. Don't be afraid to say their name - talking about them keeps their memory alive. Look at photos, talk to them, remember the good times. But most of all, be kind to yourself. Massive hugs xx

I can really relate to this :( It's something I struggle with and it's like, even if it wasn't my fault, I was the one responsible for them so it's hard to not feel like I let them down. But I want to remember the good times with them so all I can do is try to shake away the guilt and think of happy memories.

joey&boo
16-12-2016, 10:47 PM
It is so painfully hard & I don't think the pain, doubt or questioning ever leaves us completely. It doesn't for me - its rare a week goes by when I won't question something i did / didn't do with one or other of my bunnies. I'll cry tears of joy or sadness often. I think more it is something you learn to cope with / manage over time.

I like to compile a little book too that tells their story, quirky habits with little drawings & photos. I found it really therapeutic, not only in getting my emotional mess out of my head & down on paper, but also In immortalising them :love:

Glingle
17-12-2016, 02:52 AM
Sending hugs xxx

Zoobec
17-12-2016, 04:47 AM
Thinking of you and sending hugs xx

Jack's-Jane
17-12-2016, 05:18 AM
since the shock and denial of losing bisc has worn off, i am left with the deepest sadness i have ever felt. i don't know what to do. people say it takes time to heal but i know this never will.

i have flashes of intense anger amongst the sadness. i can't believe how wrong i got things at the end. when it mattered the most, i let him down. i HATE myself for it.

i don't really know what i want anyone to say. but i know that at least on here people understand. and i've been avoiding 'talking' about it all. i can't even do his rainbow bridge tribute.

:cry:

Firstly I send you many hugs. The loss of an extra special Rabbit is a pain like no other. This is just my opinion and no doubt some will shoot me down for thinking this way, seeing it as 'wallowing in grief'. When we loose our Soul Rabbit we never get over it. The loss is a void that will remain forever and trying to fill it is futile. So what do we do? Again I can only speak for myself, we are all different after all. I take each day at a time. I no longer try to 'pull myself together' or to deny how utterly devastated and heartbroken I am. I allow myself to feel the pain rather than trying to push it away or to distract myself from it. I allow myself to keep posting about The Inspector on here and to 'speak' about how I feel now his physical being has gone. Those on here who truly understand and care will offer support. Those who think it's all attention seeking need not open the thread and if they do it's their own fault if the get pee'd off !

The pain does not go away if we allow ourselves to feel it rather than trying to push it away. But somehow the intensity of the pain becomes less terrifying. The intensity does not lessen, but the fear of it does. I also try to remind myself of how Morse lived, not that he died. Like Bisc Morse battled longterm health problems with remarkable fortitude and courage. Both Rabbits knew they were greatly loved and that they were always safe. I am sorry that you were not able to be with Bisc as he passed and I totally understand how wretched you feel about it. Of course it was NOT your fault and you did NOT let him down. But as I have said, I do understand that you feel you have. Self blame can become very destructive though, so try as hard as you can to forgive yourself. Not that I think you have anything to forgive yourself for. I am just trying to acknowledge how you feel and not tell you that you should not feel as you do.

I would be lying if I said that time heals, in some cases it does not. But perhaps it is possible to find ways to live with the pain and to manage it as best we can each day.

There are many cliches that can be expressed when a person is broken by bereavement. But in my opinion they seldom help. What helps me (although it may be different for you) is to have my feelings acknowledge and to not hear any attempts to put a positive spin on it all. Basically to just do this

http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b27/Jan-bun/286aeedc3aab2d2616652f55b7e0e846_zpsqxj6ln4i.jpg (http://s16.photobucket.com/user/Jan-bun/media/286aeedc3aab2d2616652f55b7e0e846_zpsqxj6ln4i.jpg.h tml)

roxyroller88
17-12-2016, 09:36 AM
I understand how you feel and you are not alone. I haven't been able to make a rainbow bridge post for Billy either... I have various posts about him on here but it just doesn't feel right to put one there. I'm not ready and I'm not sure that I ever will be.

I'm sorry that you are a feeling so much pain. My only advice to you would be to have a good cry and not to hide from your grief. I'm sure that people think that I'm very dramatic because I cry all the time. I look at the photo album that I made for him and I bawl. It feels like torture when I start but by the time i've finished flicking through the album I am usually smiling. How could I not be?! He was a little ray of sunshine and I was lucky to have him in my life, even if it was just for a little while.

This quote sums it up perfectly for me

http://i1065.photobucket.com/albums/u396/Holly_Stockton/FB_IMG_1481967407543_zpsykwhybbe.jpg (http://s1065.photobucket.com/user/Holly_Stockton/media/FB_IMG_1481967407543_zpsykwhybbe.jpg.html)

Sending you lots of love and hugs and if you ever need to chat, my inbox is always open. Xxx

MightyMax
17-12-2016, 12:01 PM
I understand how you feel and you are not alone. I haven't been able to make a rainbow bridge post for Billy either... I have various posts about him on here but it just doesn't feel right to put one there. I'm not ready and I'm not sure that I ever will be.

I'm sorry that you are a feeling so much pain. My only advice to you would be to have a good cry and not to hide from your grief. I'm sure that people think that I'm very dramatic because I cry all the time. I look at the photo album that I made for him and I bawl. It feels like torture when I start but by the time i've finished flicking through the album I am usually smiling. How could I not be?! He was a little ray of sunshine and I was lucky to have him in my life, even if it was just for a little while.

This quote sums it up perfectly for me

http://i1065.photobucket.com/albums/u396/Holly_Stockton/FB_IMG_1481967407543_zpsykwhybbe.jpg (http://s1065.photobucket.com/user/Holly_Stockton/media/FB_IMG_1481967407543_zpsykwhybbe.jpg.html)

Sending you lots of love and hugs and if you ever need to chat, my inbox is always open. Xxx


This is lovely Roxy :love:

The hurt certainly runs very deep but we have to believe it's worth it or we'd never have the little critters in our lives.

Omi
17-12-2016, 01:12 PM
I understand how you feel and send you lots of hugs.

biscandmatt1
17-12-2016, 03:11 PM
i really appreciate the posts. thank you.

i know it was the right time for bisc, and that is the most important thing. all his problems were coming to a head. they were getting too much for him. but i just think he could have been made more comfortable in the days before, and we should have maybe let him go as soon as we got to the vets. my head was a mess and i didn't even think about it. i think the out of hours should have at least talked through it with us. i should have stayed there too to ask if i could see him once they'd got him settled. i always planned to do that when the time came but it just went out my head. he didn't like being at the vets.

i feel like when we took him in, he wasn't going to last much longer, and it's like we prolonged his death by hours :( just before we took him in, i felt like i was pushing and shoving him around to try and get his medicine in, but he couldn't swallow so he must have been so upset with me :( i saw in his eyes that he had had enough and i didn't even think to let him go when we got to the vets. in hindsight, i think we shouldn't have set off to the vets at all and let him go at home.

i don't want to sound ungrateful because i got to spend over ten years with him. and i know the time was right for him. i just wish he could have been more comforable and not spent his last days being picked up for meds and feeding.

he was the best thing in my life and i just can't adjust to life without him x

LagomorphLion
17-12-2016, 04:12 PM
Hi Biscandmatt1,

I too have recently lost my soulbun so I really do understand how you feel. I hope this doesn't sound insensitive, but thank you for writing down your feelings, it has brought some comfort to me to know someone understands how I feel too.

I don't think we will ever truly 'adjust' to life without our buns but with some time hopefully we will learn how to live with the sadness and guilt we feel.

No matter when our boys moved on, there will have always been things that we think we should or should not have done. Something that has helped me cope with this is that having these feelings show how much love we have for them.

I know there's nothing I can do or say to make either of us feel better, but wanted to send a virtual hand to hold your way.

Lea-Anne
17-12-2016, 06:49 PM
“When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”
― Kahlil Gibran Xxxxx

parsnipbun
17-12-2016, 07:31 PM
This could be me talking about Meggie's death nearly 18 months ago. Yes, the initial shock and anger wears off but, like you, I still have an intense sadness and feelings of despair that I let her down when she needed me the most. It doesn't matter how many times people tell you it wasn't your fault and you did everything you could, nothing changes the fact that you feel huge guilt and it clings to you, dragging you down when you least expect it. I can now go a few days between bouts of tears but they're only ever millimetres from the surface, springing forth at the most inopportune moment. I totally feel your pain. Don't be afraid to sit down and sob - it does help. Don't be afraid to say their name - talking about them keeps their memory alive. Look at photos, talk to them, remember the good times. But most of all, be kind to yourself. Massive hugs xx

exactly this - I have not been around much and so do not know what happened at the end - but i know I have had exactly this emotional package and in the end the good memories WILL win out.

rachylou
18-12-2016, 12:48 AM
I am so sorry I don't know what happened to Bisc,I am sorry you lost your boy.
This thread has bought tears to my eyes as 3 weeks ago we came close to loosing Jims, he is my soul mate, I love him with all my heart and i honestly will never be ready to let him go and sure as hell will never get used to him not being with me, I need him in my life forever so I can imagine the intense sadness you must be feeling.

MimzMum
18-12-2016, 04:17 AM
I'm going to get very long in the tooth and philosophical here so apologies in advance if I bore everyone to tears or sound like I've lost the plot. :lol:

I'm also acquainted with the phrase "time heals." And like Jane, I've found in my experience that I need to discard that notion...at least in the broad sense of the definition of the word, "healing."

When we suffer a cut or bruise that isn't too deep...yes, with a little attention and care to the wound, we can heal. And we're usually told from a young age that it's "all better now, stop crying." And we have an ice cream, if you have an indulgent (and probably harried) parent.
Or when we have a cold or flu, we can do what's necessary to lessen it and eventually it goes away. This is all what I would classify as "healing."

When we suffer a loss, I do not believe that we heal so much as, we scar.

Physically, I have some very deep scars. I've had major surgery and this surgery took something away from me. Not just from my body but emotionally and mentally. And in all three arenas, I now sport scars. Some are a sign that I am free from disease, yes that is in a sense healing, but some also make me realize I am no longer whole, I am not who I was. And no one can say that it's about time I stop missing who I was. Well they can, but it's not likely to happen. I can occasionally reduce the feeling of being 'broken' or 'incomplete' but I can never change everything back to the way it was and be the 'old me' again.

Some may disagree with what I am about to say, but, my above statement is not necessarily a bad thing, in my opinion. We live in a world where people see someone sad and think they must cheer them up because sad isn't normal. And I call :censored: on that.

Even we can be hard on ourselves and think we need to buck up. But I say, be kind to yourself. Don't expect what you may not be able to deliver at this point in time, if ever. Just make a special place for it. It is a part of you, sometimes it needs to be nurtured rather than rebuked.

I haven't tributed Tooey. I am not likely to. For me I think a certain amount of time has passed that it doesn't help to do such a thing anymore, and that's where I am right now. Plus, whenever I have to think of her it brings it all back and especially her last day, which was obviously the inevitable conclusion to a life that was punctuated in the end by long illness. But I think of her a lot. Can't help it. I loved her. Still do and always will. And every other animal friend I've had to bid farewell to under acceptable or difficult circumstances. I relive each of their passings quite often, as well as their lives with us. Each one has their own unique effect on my daily mood depending on how we lived our lives together, and how we said goodbye.

Sadly, sometimes even when we do 'the right thing' by a beloved pet or companion, it can still not be completely right. I won't elaborate, I'll just say that, yes, we chose to end her suffering. Yes, it was likely a correct decision as she was going downhill and overall, she was never going to get better. It was still awful to agree to and witness and anyone who says they have no trouble with this experience is (hopefully) lying. I wouldn't blame anyone who wanted to take that 'last chance saloon' approach (borrowing one of Jane's phrases here) for the pet who may or may not already be beyond the point of no return, or if you wanted strict guidelines for the animal's comfort adhered to, or a chance to have that last cuddle or look in their eyes, sometimes to apologise...mostly to say "I love you" one more time, and let the echo of those three little words cross the rainbow with them, because for now, we cannot. :cry:

I don't want to upset anyone reading this, or to paint all vets with the same brush... but Tooey's passing was not as peaceful as it could have been and I feel that was my fault because I was right there and should've asked the vet for certain procedures that were not in place that day, but I just assumed what I had seen done before would be done again...it wasn't. The same aim was established but if I could go back and change how it happened, I would. But I can't.

I am scarred.
My poor son, who had never attended a euthanasia appointment, much less one for his best friend in the world, is scarred.

I like to think that Tooey did "come back" and let us know she was alright. I heard footfalls in the house that could only have been hers. I caught glimpses of a black cat out of the corner of my eye. Not everyone experiences things such as this and some may say I'm wishful thinking. Does it give me a bit of comfort? Maybe. But it doesn't erase the scars.

And that's okay. Because without some scars in our lives, I think we wouldn't be the people we are. In some cases scars should be cherished, because they attest to the depth to which we loved an individual. They remind us of who they were to us. On my right hand I have some deep tooth marks still and scratches from when Griff bit me over three months ago thinking I was the other cat in the house come for a fight. He didn't realize it was me till it was too late. It was a terrible experience for us both, but oddly, on the same arm I have a bite mark from Tooey from about 15 years previous as well; our dog was sneaking up on her and I'd picked her up to get her out of the way and bam! she let me know she didn't appreciate it. It's faint, but I can still see it. And when the time comes that I have to say goodbye to Griff, I will have these visible reminders of him as well...an oddly enough, I cherish them. The scars you can't see? Those are yet to be made...the day we part will leave the deepest ones.

In his case, I've written a poem which I will publish in his RB thread, as I'm fairly sure I will need to make one to process his passing. Strange to have already produced his 'eulogy?' Yeah, I think so too, but we don't always have control over when our deepest feelings hit us or how...and rather than push it back, I wrote the words down as they came. I will agree with others here that writing is a marvelous way to get the feelings somewhere other than our heads. It doesn't have to be Hemingway...it just has to be you, and how you felt, and still feel, about the one you held dear.

Deep grief is part of the human condition. Embrace it and wade through it if that is what you need to do. Revisit it. A word of caution not to let your grief become it's own illness, by all means if you believe it is something that you need to let go of and are having difficulty, then seek whatever help you need to do so...but if even your grief brings you a strange form of comfort...if it helps you remember the one you loved so dearly...then don't wisht it away. Speak to it. Engage it. Dance with it. And maybe by the time you have finished your conversation with your grief, even if it is one of many, you may feel it has lessened somewhat with familiarity.

There's an old song by Todd Rundgren called "Time Heals." I love the line in it that says, "If you're crying, then everyone can see you crying...and they all sympathize. But it just doesn't matter, though they may be trying, they can't feel the hurt inside." Too true. But you know what is and isn't hurting...and when you hurt, you want to make it better. We just all have different ways of achieving that.

Another one from Todd: "I'm only human, mere flesh and blood. I'm afraid to go on without someone to hold me up."

Okay...went far afield and waxed long there...but in fewer words what I'm trying to say is; you miss Bisc, you still love him, you always will, and you wish he were still here. And that's okay. (((((((((((((((Huge hugs)))))))))))))) xxxxx

biscandmatt1
18-12-2016, 04:20 PM
Thank you so much everyone. I'm glad I decided to post.

I do feel like I'm broken yet at the same time been left with a strength that I haven't had before. It has put things into perspective. Bisc gave me an inner strength and he still does. I can never thank him enough for what he brought to my life. For showing me what unconditional love is, and for bringing me an inner peace and calm just from being able to lie beside him.

I feel so sad but I am also relieved for him in a way that he is free from his health problems and reunited with Matt.

It feels like a long time to wait to be with them again though x

Mackers
18-12-2016, 06:24 PM
exactly this - I have not been around much and so do not know what happened at the end - but i know I have had exactly this emotional package and in the end the good memories WILL win out.

For me, it's pure guilt over Meggie's death, and still some shock, because it was unexpected. I am ALWAYS with my dogs at the end, usually in our own home. But even if we can't be in our own home, I hold them so they have the comfort of knowing safety and love. Meggie was terminally ill, although I didn't know it at the time. Her last night on earth was spent hooked up to a drip at the emergency vets and not in her own home. The following morning, we did a 90 mile an hour dash to Davies Referral Vets in Bedfordshire. On arrival, a medical team met us in the carpark, took one look at her, placed her on a trolley and rushed off to the emergency room. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye and I never saw her alive again. She died later that day.

And that's what's crushed me. I didn't know she was terminally ill, I never had a chance to say goodbye, I wasn't with her and she died alone. I let her down when she needed me the most. I'll NEVER get over that. It will haunt me until my dying day :cry:.

Grief sucks.

thumps_
18-12-2016, 10:57 PM
I don't have anything like the vocabulary others have to express their feelings, but there's a truth you will know.
You were about the 1st person to open a new door to treating snuffles on here. Remember the "bunnies in the mist" photo? You very patiently & kindly taught me about snuffles so I've referred many RUers to you by pm for advice.
Above all,I had no idea that my next bun would have snuffles. The vet thought he wouldn't last out the year, it is purely because of you teaching me so well, that Benjie has got this far. We are both deeply indebted to you & I understand the personal cost to you as the person who1st opened this door.

I don't know what you blame yourself for, whether realistic or not, but would say that you had 2 snuffles bunnies, needing years & years of constant care & vigillance. It is wrong to blame yourself through the retrospectrosope when a decision was made with far less information available at the time. Even so, no one on this earth can be 100% right all the time, so please be merciful to yourself, as I'm sure you would be to others. I'm sure that Bisc holds nothing against you at all, rather loves you so much for all that you gave him. He would be so distressed watching you pull yourself apart.

Time? I think the searing pain diminishes. It's good to remember the good times, the funny times, - I call it my "treasure chest" which is always there to be opened. I still talk about Thumper, (probably some who didn't know us think I have 2 buns now!!)
There are also times to shed tears. It's a case of balance. I just say, please don't let the ending rob you of all those wonderful years you had together. Yes, there is still a Thumper shaped hole in my life, but it's eased by all the fond memmories.

It may not help your grief, but may I take this opportunity to express my deep indebtedness to you, for giving a no hope baby bunny 51/2 good years of life

biscandmatt1
19-12-2016, 01:37 AM
bunnies in the mist :love:

http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202010/88a60a2f-a90d-404d-9c6c-45fe8b1daae8_zpsdk5a0lgd.jpg

i love and miss my boys so much x

biscandmatt1
19-12-2016, 01:39 AM
2006: http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmatt-2-1.jpg

http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmattzzzzzzzzz-2-1.jpg

http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmattputyoureararoundme-4.jpg

the start of our very special journey.

MimzMum
19-12-2016, 02:49 AM
Oh I've never seen those photos before! :love: Gosh I just teared up bigtime, how precious! :love:
Do you have more? Would you be up to sharing? :D
What a couple of cuddle buns! And surely they are doing that right now at the Rainbow and smiling upon you. :love: xxxx

thumps_
19-12-2016, 06:18 PM
What lovely photo's which I haven't seen before.:love:
Now for the tough bit. Are you able to lay aside the present grief & remember what it was like before snuffles reared it's ugly head. Remember how you felt watching them all cuddled up? All the happy feelings, the funny times.

So you will be able to see that you were given something sooo precious & absolutely unique. Although you may not have it now, the point is, that you had it then. It is part of your life, & no one or anything can take that experience away from you, when ever you want to resavour it. This is what I call my "treasure chest". I live in the present, but when it seems cold & empty, I take a quick trip to my treasure chest, & think I'm so glad I experienced that, smile & even laugh a little.
Are you able to do that yet?

Kara
19-12-2016, 07:09 PM
I'm so sorry that you are suffering, I totally understand xxx

I always take comfort at feeling so sad because I loved so much xxx

MightyMax
19-12-2016, 07:44 PM
2006: http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmatt-2-1.jpg

http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmattzzzzzzzzz-2-1.jpg

http://i689.photobucket.com/albums/vv257/biscandmatt/bisc%20and%20matt%202006/biscandmattputyoureararoundme-4.jpg

the start of our very special journey.


I've never seen those photos :love:

How special they were and how special you are for caring for them so wonderfully and carefully.

Miss Binky Bunny
20-12-2016, 11:00 PM
Oh BiscandMatt1, a huge hug for you. I wasn't aware of what happened to Bisc at the time, but I've been going through much of a similar time myself since the loss of Mr B, and very much as Mackers post. I know you loved Bisc so much and he loved you too and equally as much. They are beautiful photos and he will always be with you in your heart. x