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I just can't accept

Nothing anyone says can make it better but what a lovely life she had and what a lovely resting place.
 
Aww. I know how you feel - the poppy seeds I scattered over Poppy's resting place are starting to come through now.

Big hugs to you.xx
 
Thank you. It doesn't seem to get easier. :cry:

I keep thinking if only my vet was more knowledgeable she might still be here. If only I knew what was wrong I could have helped her. I wonder if I kept her going too long but she didn't look like she wanted to leave. Her spirit was still fighting. Maybe I should have let her go whilst she was still fighting?
On her last day she had given up, the light had gone from her eyes I knew I needed to get her to a vet but I had to take my son to a party. Before I left I gave gypsy the maximum allowed dose of psin killer. Made her comfy and knew that I would have to make that phone call. She died while we were out we had only been gone a couple of hours. What if I accidentally gave her too much pain relief? ?
What if I got her to a specialist? Would she still be here. Is it my fault? ? Did she suffer? She was in exactly the same spot that I had left her. She hadn't moved at all :cry: storm was by her side. She wasn't alone but o should have been there.
It has been 3 months but all this keeps going round my head all the time. Each time I see her little grave it is like a punch to the stomach. Did I fail her? I haven't really spoken about this.

Storm has a new friend. I wasn't ready. She looks like gypsy. I didn't know she would. They don't really like each other. They just live together ignoring each other now. Storm did attack her but now they live together but separate. I thought I was doing the right thing but I failed again.

All this stuff going round my head I can't find peace. It just hurts :cry:
 
Firstly I think you need a big hug ((hug))
Everything you are feeling is totally natural, everyone questions themselves when they had to make the decision.
You did not fail Gypsy in the slightest so please dont be hard on yourself.
She passed in the comfort of her home with her loving partner, I think that if it is going to happen that would be quite a nice way to go, rather than being taken to a scary vet.
Her resting spot is beautiful, rest now little girl xx
 
Oh sparklefairy, what a beautiful resting place. :love: Pickles is sharing Ginger's cherry tree but we're going to plant him some forget-me-nots of his own too. I think that sort of thing can really help, in the long run at least.

I can really empathise with you and the 'What if...?' feelings. You know it's a natural part of grieving but it still all has to be waded through. I didn't give Pickles any metacam. Of course now I'm wondering if I had perhaps he wouldn't have died, or at least wouldn't have suffered at the end, but then if I had of course I would have been hating myself thinking it was that that had done it! There's no simple solution, no way of turning off those feelings of guilt and pain and emptiness. You just have to keep ploughing forwards.

Lots of love and hugs from me. :love:
 
It is a beautiful memorial. I wish all my past companions had such a lovely marker. Sadly I can't do anything like that due to our nasty ground and yard up here...the only things that grow are weeds. :(
I understand the self doubt. I think we all feel it even if we plan around the passing of a beloved friend. It's just the weight we bear as caregivers because we love them so much. We wish they could go on forever with no pain or illness. They live such brief lives but those lives are lived to the full I am certain. Animals make the most of each moment because they don't have all our mental questioning.
I know it's easy to say but please try not to find fault with yourself. Gypsy had a brilliant life with you and Storm. She was with him and not stressed with a vet visit. I wish all my pets could've passed peacefully at home. It always makes it harder when we have to take them in. :(
Thinking of you and sending (((((((((((huge hugs))))))))). xxxx
 
I wish there were words to make it all hurt less :cry: But I know all too well that there are not :cry:

((((((((((Hugs))))))))))) xx
 
((((hugs)))) I know very well how hard it is to lose something that is so very precious and you love so much, it's a week today since we lost Dudley one of our bunnies and we have lost two already this year and we have another who is on borrowed time as he has cancer and he is so gorgeous he' like a koala bear and all I seem to do is cry. I'd like to say it get's better but it doesn't for me :(

Your memorial to him is beautiful such pretty flowers and the bunny ornament in the middle it's so lovely.

Hope you will feel better with time xxxx more hugs (((())))
 
understand how you feel :cry: hugs to you l gypsy garden is lovely and a lively remembrance spot, even though this year marks what would be 3 years already without my sole bunny :cry: everyday since we laid him to rest I go out and tap above him, like im patting him, and say hope your ok my special boy :cry:
 
Thank you for your kind words. I am truly sorry to every one going through grief and loss and to anyone who has ever felt as I do now. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone xxxx
 
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