Jenova
Wise Old Thumper
Obviously I love them as much as ever, but I'm so sick and literally so tired of all the problems. Grim's snuffles and ridiculous amount of medication and Smoo's abscess that was drained in January and is still leaking. Her other abscesses and tumours and having to decide whether to operate more or keep her comfortable and having to look at her every day and make the descison all over again. And the heat and flystrike scare on top of all of that. I'm just not enjoying them any more. My day to day life is controlled by them. I'm out at work for 11 hours a day where I worry about them back at home. It's the only time I can phone the vets so things happen like: I pop into a quiet room and have a long conversation with the vets about Smoo's health and options and keeping her comfortable until it's time. I'm feeling a bit raw, then I go and have to throw myself back into work and discussions and not let it affect me.
When I get home I have to clean them out straight away and do all the medication, I can't stay after work for drinks with people and somehow while doing that I have to make dinner. I usually don't eat until 8 or 9 at night and I try to be in bed by half 10.
I can't go away without tonnes of planning and that's only for two nights max. Longer and I have to take them with me which is even more planning.
It makes me so sad because sometimes I think it will be nice when I don't have to do all this any more, but then I'll be broken because I will have lost my beloved pets.
I don't get to enjoy them enough any more. But I try to make just a little time to sit down and just stroke them and tell them how much I love them. My baby bunnies Grim and Smoo who are so I'll yet still enjoy life to the full. They are amazing rabbits and I'd do anything for them.
When I get home I have to clean them out straight away and do all the medication, I can't stay after work for drinks with people and somehow while doing that I have to make dinner. I usually don't eat until 8 or 9 at night and I try to be in bed by half 10.
I can't go away without tonnes of planning and that's only for two nights max. Longer and I have to take them with me which is even more planning.
It makes me so sad because sometimes I think it will be nice when I don't have to do all this any more, but then I'll be broken because I will have lost my beloved pets.
I don't get to enjoy them enough any more. But I try to make just a little time to sit down and just stroke them and tell them how much I love them. My baby bunnies Grim and Smoo who are so I'll yet still enjoy life to the full. They are amazing rabbits and I'd do anything for them.
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