You must miss him so much. They really were like two peas in a pod.
Yes, it is by far the hardest loss I have ever had. Even more-so than Jack. I keep saying it, but it was the fact that his death was totally unexpected. Then to find out the cause ( a very rare cancer) came as a double blow.
I am trying to remember him as he was, a total hooligan.Happy, hyperactive, cheeky, destructive, stubborn and VERY greedy ! But the sadness I feel about losing him is as acute now as it was on the day he died.