:wave:I think that coming back here is a very courageous 1st. step.
Just seeing our user names will bring back memmories & add to your grieving process, so take it gently. You can opt in & out as you are able here. It might be a good idea to stick with the "photos & stories" part of the forum, just getting used to seeing buns until the grief doesn't surge back, which it might do at 1st. It's such a boost when others respond when we share the happiness our buns give us, because it's only special people who understand us.
Sometimes in "behaviour & bonding" a new kit asks a very simple question eg "is it normal for my bun to go loopy & jump in the air". This helps you to bring back happy memmories & the new kit is delighted with your reply that it's a sign of a very happy bun.
See you can help others, while slowly getting back to being used to buns not being an intensely painful reminder.
I don't think you fully realise that Casper & Poppy are iconic buns on here. You tried something completely new, with low chew food to reduce the pain, & found so many ways to reduce stress, you know the importance of pain relieving drugs, & the results were truely miraculous. When I heard Casper had the jaw infection, I honestly thought he'd only manage another month, & with Poppy a few weeks.
So many of us have learned fom you. I'd suggest you wait until you're fully better before you go back there.
You may find it odd that an older woman has soo much respect for you, but I do, AND because of this, I say "please let this forum help you to heal".
Personally I find "health" incredibly emotionally demanding, & have moved over to diet & foraging more. For me it's not just the loss of Thumper, but I also have a great sadness for the passing of many buns on here. I'd advise against you going there until you're much much stronger.
BTW I wasn't looking for another bun, in fact I was very worried I could manage, not only emotionally, but I was
physically exhausted after caring for a sick bun for 5 + years. Benjie was found trying to cross a busy road in rush hour. There were no enquiries after 2 weeks, & he was going to be sent to a rescue. My heart melted at the thought of a little baby, whose plums hadn't dropped, waiting & waiting for a proper home. I was geared up for rabbits. He's a totally different temperament from Thumper, so it was easier for me, but I wasn't well physically, & I feel he's missed out.
Please get strong again, both
physically & emotionally. Rabbits are the most difficult & complex animals to care for. I'd say we owe it to them to be as well as we can be before giving them a home.
I really am delighted you've come back to us.