I had a beautiful dwarf lop eared rabbit named Jasper . My dog found him wandering around my garden one Christmas 5 years ago and he followed the dog into the back door. They became firm friends. Jasper was a real character, scared of nothing, trusting and affectionate. When I found him i took him straight to the vets to have him checked out as I already had Guinea Pigs and didnt want an illness that he may have picked up whilst he was running free. The vet told me there and then that if I couldnt find his owners(which I did try with advertisements) that he would be an on going cost as his teeth were in a terrible state from the wrong feeding. He was right as Jasper has cost me £100 every 3 /4 months to have his back teeth rasped. He had no front teeth so couldnt graze. But he worth every penny.
I have no excuse for what happened to him and I can only think that I have so many problems at the moment with losing my job, vet bills etc etc that my mind was elsewhere this week.. I remember looking into his bowl (he lived in the kitchen) and thinking oh he has plenty of feed in there , but on looking back I was looking at a bowl full of shavings. I dont know how many times this week I havent fed him because in my mind he had food ( Iknow this makes no sense at all) I fed him on Saturday and when Sunday morning came again i though oh he has food !! My daughter put him in the garden but she never filled his bowl up there either and I never thought about it. Jasper followed me all day whilst I was gardening and he seemed full of life chasing the chickens around the bushes (his favourite game) then sitting on my feet while I read a book. I brought him back inside with the intention of filling his bowl but the phone rang so I placed him in the cage and said hang on their Jasp Il be back in a minute. I did go back to let him out, to run around the house this time chasing the cats again full of energy .. He kept jumping up onto the couch and running up my chest to lick my chin and I stroked his ears as he used to fall asleep when I did that. I put him back in his cage before bedtime , fed the cats fed the dog and I have no idea how i didnt feed Jasper, he was right in front of me . I went to bed and in the morning Jasper had passed away. I have never felt such utter dispair at how I could have done this to him.. I have no excuses and I loved this beautiful little rabbit, his gentle character and I miss him deperately. How could I do something so horrific as to not feed him how could I forget??? I have torn myself up going over and over in my mind as to what I did. I cant sleep cant eat , cant stop crying. This is grief and remorse that I never knew could be an actual physical pain.. I cant take back what I have done, I would if I could. And I will never forgive myself. I hope he didnt die thinking that he had done something wrong or that I hated him. Above all please dont let him have died in any pain.. I am so Sorryx This has been 3 weeks now and the pain is still as strong forgive me Jasper.
I have no excuse for what happened to him and I can only think that I have so many problems at the moment with losing my job, vet bills etc etc that my mind was elsewhere this week.. I remember looking into his bowl (he lived in the kitchen) and thinking oh he has plenty of feed in there , but on looking back I was looking at a bowl full of shavings. I dont know how many times this week I havent fed him because in my mind he had food ( Iknow this makes no sense at all) I fed him on Saturday and when Sunday morning came again i though oh he has food !! My daughter put him in the garden but she never filled his bowl up there either and I never thought about it. Jasper followed me all day whilst I was gardening and he seemed full of life chasing the chickens around the bushes (his favourite game) then sitting on my feet while I read a book. I brought him back inside with the intention of filling his bowl but the phone rang so I placed him in the cage and said hang on their Jasp Il be back in a minute. I did go back to let him out, to run around the house this time chasing the cats again full of energy .. He kept jumping up onto the couch and running up my chest to lick my chin and I stroked his ears as he used to fall asleep when I did that. I put him back in his cage before bedtime , fed the cats fed the dog and I have no idea how i didnt feed Jasper, he was right in front of me . I went to bed and in the morning Jasper had passed away. I have never felt such utter dispair at how I could have done this to him.. I have no excuses and I loved this beautiful little rabbit, his gentle character and I miss him deperately. How could I do something so horrific as to not feed him how could I forget??? I have torn myself up going over and over in my mind as to what I did. I cant sleep cant eat , cant stop crying. This is grief and remorse that I never knew could be an actual physical pain.. I cant take back what I have done, I would if I could. And I will never forgive myself. I hope he didnt die thinking that he had done something wrong or that I hated him. Above all please dont let him have died in any pain.. I am so Sorryx This has been 3 weeks now and the pain is still as strong forgive me Jasper.