Ive been crying for 2 days. I had such a bond with Ozzie & cant get over the fact that I had him for just about 6 months. Last night I had to sing in a show in front of 400 people. I was crying before & after but managed to do it. We buried Ozzie in a beautiful orchard on a hillside, on my friends' land, next to their own pets' graves. I just feel so sad that he had to go so young. Also i don't know what killed him but it was horrific to see and to not be able to get help at the end. He had supposedly had 24 hour pain relief yet he was suffering. Someone on here said it's handy to be able to blame the vet, well i don't "blame" them but I think I was given bad advice, spoken to abruptly when I was distraught & not believed when i told them he was ni real trouble. He was eating before he went to the vets, but not eating hay. He went downhill rapidly after coming back. Maybe all the treatment in the world couldnt have saved him, maybe he had an underlying condition, I dont know. I'm sure he should have had fluids & been kept in. I know we always torture ourselves when a person or animal dies, it's hard not to. I did everything I could & stayed up nights but I still feel i failed him. My little friend died in my partners arms, he knew he was loved & he looked directly at me as he went. I'm so upset. Did anyone else feel like this?