winnies angel
Mama Doe
As you know we lost winston, but I cant move on I need answers, I need to know why.
Yes he had hip problem which he was on meds for but in his last week he was coming down off his meds in fact for 2 day he refused to have them (vet knew and said she would prefer for him to not be on them if possible and just have high metacam but he could stay on the vetergesic if needs be) he had just recovered from bloat the previous week.
The day he died we had just start his high meds the night before again as he seemed a bit uncomfortable and he had some more morn and at dinner time. He only ate a small amount of food that day and was sitting around a lot like when he has bloat. When I came home from work I found him lying on the floor unable to move he couldnt pick his head up or move his legs and dragged himself along on his belly so we rushed him straight to vets she put him on the floor, he had now perked up and was moving everything again although his back end was stiff. And she asked about his problems etc and siad he was suffering and it was time to let him go it would be cruel to allow him to carry on.
Of course we agreed but now I wonder
if it was his hip why couldn't he move his head?
He always walked funny because of his feet how could she tell it was the end without a full examination?
I knew he had a problem when our vet was treating him for ec and he went 10 weeks before his hip was diagnosed would it have made adiff if it was caught sooner?
Did I do everything I possibly could to help him and make his life better and will he know I never gave up on him and I love him so much and I didn't want him to go but we let him go because she has more qualifications than us and we didn't want him to suffer?
I know looking back at pics his body was starting to look tired and his muscles had wasted but what happened that day when the previous days he ran hopping like he hadn't done in months.
I just need comfort im being very selfish but I need some ideas what it was that happened. My vet said it sounded neurological and that some vets wont keep small animals on life meds they say its cruel what does she mean he may have lived but needed meds I dont understand?
Its killing me I want to know I didn't kill my little boy.
Yes he had hip problem which he was on meds for but in his last week he was coming down off his meds in fact for 2 day he refused to have them (vet knew and said she would prefer for him to not be on them if possible and just have high metacam but he could stay on the vetergesic if needs be) he had just recovered from bloat the previous week.
The day he died we had just start his high meds the night before again as he seemed a bit uncomfortable and he had some more morn and at dinner time. He only ate a small amount of food that day and was sitting around a lot like when he has bloat. When I came home from work I found him lying on the floor unable to move he couldnt pick his head up or move his legs and dragged himself along on his belly so we rushed him straight to vets she put him on the floor, he had now perked up and was moving everything again although his back end was stiff. And she asked about his problems etc and siad he was suffering and it was time to let him go it would be cruel to allow him to carry on.
Of course we agreed but now I wonder
if it was his hip why couldn't he move his head?
He always walked funny because of his feet how could she tell it was the end without a full examination?
I knew he had a problem when our vet was treating him for ec and he went 10 weeks before his hip was diagnosed would it have made adiff if it was caught sooner?
Did I do everything I possibly could to help him and make his life better and will he know I never gave up on him and I love him so much and I didn't want him to go but we let him go because she has more qualifications than us and we didn't want him to suffer?
I know looking back at pics his body was starting to look tired and his muscles had wasted but what happened that day when the previous days he ran hopping like he hadn't done in months.
I just need comfort im being very selfish but I need some ideas what it was that happened. My vet said it sounded neurological and that some vets wont keep small animals on life meds they say its cruel what does she mean he may have lived but needed meds I dont understand?
Its killing me I want to know I didn't kill my little boy.