Minimallow
Wise Old Thumper
I'm sitting here and i've been thinking a lot about Elliot - one of my bridge buns.
We only actually had the pleasure of his company for just over two months as he passed away not long after we got him. There was just something about him that i felt such a deep connection with him almost instantly. Obviously i love all my buns, but i dont know if i ever will have the same thing as i did with Elliot. This is going to sound weird, but when i touched him or lay beside him i felt such a warmth between us. I had to be the one to make the decision to have him PTS as he deteriorated rapidly. He sat there with me stroking him and nuzzled into me. He didnt even flinch when the vet put the needle in his ear and he just drifted off. I always try and hold myself together for the animals sake at "the end" and made it to the car before bursting into tears. I cried almost non stop for a couple of days which i haven't ever done for any of my other animals. Ive never cried with such intensity for such a long time before that point or after it.
I "think" the reason may be because he was such a loving, trusting rabbit. He had been kept in a tiny hutch and had urine stains halfway up his paws/legs. He also had severe muscle wasteage in his backlegs and sat hunched a lot of the time - probably due to the fact that was all he was able to do in his tiny hutch. He came on so well in the two months and i think i was just gutted for him that it had to end so quickly. What makes me well up all the more when i think of it is the fact there are so many rabbits like elliot out there - and really breaks my heart to think they will never be loved, or even discovered.
Anyway i've rambled a bit :roll: but was really just wondering if its normal to feel so strongly about a bun i "barely" knew :?
We only actually had the pleasure of his company for just over two months as he passed away not long after we got him. There was just something about him that i felt such a deep connection with him almost instantly. Obviously i love all my buns, but i dont know if i ever will have the same thing as i did with Elliot. This is going to sound weird, but when i touched him or lay beside him i felt such a warmth between us. I had to be the one to make the decision to have him PTS as he deteriorated rapidly. He sat there with me stroking him and nuzzled into me. He didnt even flinch when the vet put the needle in his ear and he just drifted off. I always try and hold myself together for the animals sake at "the end" and made it to the car before bursting into tears. I cried almost non stop for a couple of days which i haven't ever done for any of my other animals. Ive never cried with such intensity for such a long time before that point or after it.
I "think" the reason may be because he was such a loving, trusting rabbit. He had been kept in a tiny hutch and had urine stains halfway up his paws/legs. He also had severe muscle wasteage in his backlegs and sat hunched a lot of the time - probably due to the fact that was all he was able to do in his tiny hutch. He came on so well in the two months and i think i was just gutted for him that it had to end so quickly. What makes me well up all the more when i think of it is the fact there are so many rabbits like elliot out there - and really breaks my heart to think they will never be loved, or even discovered.
Anyway i've rambled a bit :roll: but was really just wondering if its normal to feel so strongly about a bun i "barely" knew :?