biscandmatt1
Wise Old Thumper
i'm so exhausted from it now and it is getting worse.
i constantly worry about the pets...mainly the buns. i can't sleep because i am panicking about losing them or something happening to them.
i sleep on the settee in the lounge to be near them. i did this at first because they were ill but now i can't not do it. if i go upstairs i get very stressed and upset and end up coming back down. i need to be near them all the time. now it has been about 6 months i have been sleeping here.
i feel like if i am on the settee then if someone tries to break in i will be there and if there is a problem or a fire or something then i will be here for them to protect them.
i just think about losing them all the time and try to prepare myself and i just sit and burst into tears because the fear of losing them overwhelms me.
i'm having panic attacks more often now and i constantly worry because i feel like if i relax and try and be happy or ok, then something will happen to teach me a lesson.
i only leave the house to go to the vets with them, or asda which i go once a week if i can. but i hate going and leaving them. if anything happened and i wasn't there i would never forgive myself.
like now....my bf is out so i will wait for him to get home before i go upstairs to have a shower. i need someone with them all the time.
it's just overwhelming me now and i can't take the constant panic attacks, crying and everything else.
bf tried to help and we said we should go for walks and build up the time away from them....but i was a mess and we got to the end of the road and i was hysterically crying and shaking.
sorry for going on, i want to go and see the doctor but i don't want to go out if i don't have to leave them. but i know i need to see him. he has treated me for all my other mental health stuff for the last ten years so he knows me.
my bf is going home for xmas and i am spending it alone in the house because i can't leave the pets to go round to my mum and dads.
it's getting so difficult now
sorry, just struggling.
eta - what made it worse was when even the vet noticed i had it aswell.
i constantly worry about the pets...mainly the buns. i can't sleep because i am panicking about losing them or something happening to them.
i sleep on the settee in the lounge to be near them. i did this at first because they were ill but now i can't not do it. if i go upstairs i get very stressed and upset and end up coming back down. i need to be near them all the time. now it has been about 6 months i have been sleeping here.
i feel like if i am on the settee then if someone tries to break in i will be there and if there is a problem or a fire or something then i will be here for them to protect them.
i just think about losing them all the time and try to prepare myself and i just sit and burst into tears because the fear of losing them overwhelms me.
i'm having panic attacks more often now and i constantly worry because i feel like if i relax and try and be happy or ok, then something will happen to teach me a lesson.
i only leave the house to go to the vets with them, or asda which i go once a week if i can. but i hate going and leaving them. if anything happened and i wasn't there i would never forgive myself.
like now....my bf is out so i will wait for him to get home before i go upstairs to have a shower. i need someone with them all the time.
it's just overwhelming me now and i can't take the constant panic attacks, crying and everything else.
bf tried to help and we said we should go for walks and build up the time away from them....but i was a mess and we got to the end of the road and i was hysterically crying and shaking.
sorry for going on, i want to go and see the doctor but i don't want to go out if i don't have to leave them. but i know i need to see him. he has treated me for all my other mental health stuff for the last ten years so he knows me.
my bf is going home for xmas and i am spending it alone in the house because i can't leave the pets to go round to my mum and dads.
it's getting so difficult now
sorry, just struggling.
eta - what made it worse was when even the vet noticed i had it aswell.