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SarahP
22-03-2008, 10:24 PM
It's been quite a long time coming, but Clover's decline has been obvious, and her gut no longer works by itself. Between incredibly frequent 'episodes' of stasis she does recover, but no longer fully. I'd be surprised if she made it through the bank holiday, to be honest.

This is absolutely heartbreaking. :( We could have taken her to the vets to be PTS today, but she was quite playful and we just couldn't do it. Took some lovely piccies of her last night when she wasn't feeling too bad. I still think I will know when the time is right (I so hope so).

cashmincal
22-03-2008, 10:27 PM
I'm so sorry to hear Sarah :( I know you have done absolutely everything for her :(

Neil-and-Maria
22-03-2008, 10:27 PM
From bitter experience with Stanley (though different illness/symptoms) I can sympathise. Hope she proves you wrong.

Neil

Rosie Rabbit
22-03-2008, 10:28 PM
Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry :cry:

You've had such a tough time with Clover, I'm thinking of you and I'm here if you need anything. I wish I could do or say something useful :cry: Sending hugs to you xx

Jack's-Jane
22-03-2008, 10:31 PM
I am realy sorry Sarah :cry:
I fully understand what you are going through. My Dermot has similar probems

:cry:

Janex

Fairy13
22-03-2008, 10:32 PM
oh I'm so sorry :(
I cant imagine how hard it must be for you right now.
Thinking of you x

sally1974
22-03-2008, 10:45 PM
Im so sorry :cry:
Sallyx

bunnymadhouse
22-03-2008, 10:47 PM
ohhh ...
enjoy your last time together :(

Fran
22-03-2008, 10:48 PM
I'm so sorry Sarah :cry: Big hugs hon x

Becca
22-03-2008, 10:48 PM
:cry:So sorry.

elve
22-03-2008, 10:50 PM
oh that must be so hard for you :(

Siona
22-03-2008, 10:52 PM
http://i254.photobucket.com/albums/hh113/Redheadedbint/FLowers/bouquet-brights.jpg

Very sorry :(

SarahP
22-03-2008, 10:55 PM
Thanks so much everyone. x

Becki xX
22-03-2008, 11:03 PM
No :cry: Sarah I am so, so sorry for you all :cry: X

karen354
22-03-2008, 11:04 PM
I'm sorry :cry:this must be so hard for you :cry:

I'm thinking of you...
karen x x

Leanne
22-03-2008, 11:39 PM
So sorry to hear this Sarah :(
Im sure you will know when the time is right for Clover xxx

Deelove
23-03-2008, 12:09 AM
Very sorry about this. :(

SOAD
23-03-2008, 12:16 AM
Awwwwwwwwww :cry::cry::cry:

RusselRocky
23-03-2008, 12:17 AM
You are so brave I don't think I could be so strong... I am sorry!! :cry::cry::cry:

TheGaffer
23-03-2008, 01:01 AM
So sorry, you've battled so hard and tried your best. At least she's known the love and care that you've given her.

capel
23-03-2008, 01:34 AM
I'm so sorry. At the moment I'm sort of skirting around the edge of what you're going through, and it's just horrible, so loads of empathetic vibes coming your way.

Vanessa.B
23-03-2008, 07:25 AM
I am so sorry Sarah.

I know how horrendous it is to decide when it is time to let a beloved animal go.

My heart goes out to you,

Vanessa xx

*lily*
23-03-2008, 08:23 AM
So very sorry, it's such a horrible decision to have to make.

raine
23-03-2008, 10:09 AM
Sarah, thinking of you at this difficult timex

nursecroft
23-03-2008, 10:42 AM
Oh its so hard, just have to try and think about what a lovely life she has had with you and make the most of the time you have left, this is the downside of having animals and breaks my heart everytime xx

cannonwoman
23-03-2008, 10:58 AM
I`m so sorry to hear this Sarah:cry::cry:
You`ve fought so hard for Clover & given her the best of everything.

Thinking of you at such a hard time...............

Su.x

FriskyClover
23-03-2008, 11:00 AM
I'm sorry to hear about Clover.

I know she's been poorly for a long time but that doesn't make these decisions any easier, you will know when the time is right.

Hugs

FC xx

Sooz
23-03-2008, 12:00 PM
Im so sorry. Deciding to let Caspian go for much the same reason really was the worst decision I have ever had to make, and it took some time for me to actually achieve a sense of closure on the whole thing.

You can only fight for so long though, in the end were all up against a loosing battle and knowing when to say 'enough is enough' is the closest we will ever get to winning. Which is an awfully depressing thing in itself.

Hugs for you x

AlisonA
23-03-2008, 12:28 PM
Oh no Sarah I'm so sorry to hear this :cry: It has to be just the most heartbreaking decision - I'm sure you will know when the time is right though. How do you think Dusty will be without her sister?

Big hugs xxx

Steph
23-03-2008, 03:35 PM
So sorry Sarah :cry: Im thinking of you and Clover xx

bunbuns
23-03-2008, 04:15 PM
I'm so sorry.

Thinking of you xxx

capel
23-03-2008, 04:47 PM
How are things today?

SarahP
23-03-2008, 06:47 PM
Thank you so much for all your messages. I have been tearful reading them. :oops: It means a lot knowing you all understand.

Latest today is... she is still with me, and I'm still in huge indecision! :roll: She was v bad first thing, then perked right up again. I don't think she's particularly good now, but then her tummy isn't working effectively even with the drugs. :( She is still being playful in between sitting around not doing much. I've stopped trying to give her any pellets at all, so she is only eating hay - this seems much easier on her system (she was already down to one pellet at a time anyway!)

I so wish it wasn't a bank holiday tomorrow. :( I really don't want some emergency vet (who knows nothing about her history) arguing the toss over whether it's an emergency, or whether I've done enough for her.

I have always dreaded it would be this way round, as Clover is the more confident of the two. I just don't know what Dusty is going to be like when Clover is gone. :(

kayj
23-03-2008, 07:13 PM
Sarah if it is any consolation, I lost one of mine this week who was the stronger of the bonded pair and her partner as coped really well (I am totally shocked) he as carried on eating and being his normal self. They had veen together for 4yrs.

JayUK
23-03-2008, 07:38 PM
I'm so sorry to hear this about Clover.
I can't imagine what a sad time this must be. Big hugs x

abbymarysmokey
23-03-2008, 08:23 PM
I'm really sorry to hear about Clover.

My bunny with chronic GI trouble suddenly bloated really badly one night, so the decision was taken out of our hands. It was still one of the most heartbreaking experiences though.

My thoughts are with you, Dusty and Clover.

Amy xx

Rosie Rabbit
23-03-2008, 09:14 PM
Sorry things with Clover aren't any clearer :( Been thinking about her - and you - all day. I hope you get through tomorrow alright and don't need to see an emergency vet.

Take care xx

bunny babe
23-03-2008, 09:28 PM
I am so sorry. I hope you can get through tonight and tomorrow OK and if need be make your decision another time. It is never easy whenever it is but I am sure you will know when it is the "right" time.

bunny mad lisa
23-03-2008, 11:06 PM
i totally understand what you are going through and believe me you will just know when it's time. i spent days deliberating then all of a sudden I just knew and found the strength to let my go. It was the hardest thing I've had to do but I know that it was also know that it was the most loving thing I could have done for her. It makes it much harder when they are playful but maybe this means shes not quite ready to go just yet. if she's not in pain i would wait for your own vet if possible as this would be much easier for you both. Most bunnies do cope well with grief and I'm sure you'll have lots of extra love for Dusty and you will get through it together.
sending you my sincere best wishes
Lisa and the buns

SarahP
24-03-2008, 12:11 PM
Thanks again everyone - these messages are so helpful. xxx

Latest today is that she seems on fairly good form this morning. She is now on the maximum dose of Zantac and Metacam, and is only eating hay. I don't think she can cope with any pellets at all anymore. If she gets through today OK (fingers crossed), tomorrow will be decision day. :cry:

Fionabun
24-03-2008, 02:44 PM
I'm so sorry Sarah, this is really heartbreaking for you xxx

Sending hugs
xxx

Azraelm
24-03-2008, 03:32 PM
I'm really sorry Sarah :( I think without the excellent care you've given these two clover wouldn't still be here now. Hope you are ok xx

Azraelm
25-03-2008, 11:54 AM
How is Clover doing?

SarahP
25-03-2008, 12:29 PM
Thanks for all the lovely messages. Am quite overwhelmed. x

Stopping all pellets (she was only getting 4 SS pellets a day! Even then, in 4 sittings! :lol:) seems to have given her another few days. She had a better day yesterday than she's had for the last 4 or so.

I couldn't sleep last night for going over and over the whole imaginary scenario in the vets (really stupid, I know! :roll:) I had decided that if she was in stasis when I woke up, the kindest thing to do would be to not give her any drugs, and just whisk her off to the vets to have the deed done. :( But... she's ticking over this morning and scoffing hay, and I can't take her when she's like this. I feel like it would be the 'right thing' to do, but I can only do it when she is in full stasis, unless I find the strength from somewhere.

I have ordered a bunny soft toy online for Dusty, in the hope that it helps when Clover is gone.

Azraelm
25-03-2008, 12:52 PM
I'm glad she is still with you today. You'll know what the right decision in when the times comes x

Sooz
25-03-2008, 01:03 PM
The absolute worst thing about these types of illness is the feeling of being 'stuck in limbo' which goes with them :(

elve
25-03-2008, 01:07 PM
oooh sounds good :shock: maybe she's allergic to alfalfa or something in the SS pellets - after all someone with a nut allergy only needs a trace of nut, to have a bad reaction :?

SarahP
25-03-2008, 01:19 PM
I think it's just the bulk of them, to be honest - I've had to reduce the amounts gradually over the last few months. They've had timothy pellets (the Oxbow ones) before with the same problems, so I'm sure it's not something specific to these pellets, unfortunately. I guess it's just very concentrated food, and her tummy just can't cope with that anymore. She's got 3 different types of hay to munch on, so hopefully she won't get too bored.

SarahP
25-03-2008, 01:20 PM
The absolute worst thing about these types of illness is the feeling of being 'stuck in limbo' which goes with them :(
Definitely - I just have no idea what I'm doing from one minute to the next, and on permanent Clover watch!

capel
25-03-2008, 01:41 PM
Hi Sarah. All I can say is that you'll "know" when the time's right. Thinking of you.

Rosie Rabbit
25-03-2008, 01:55 PM
Good to hear that she's hungry for hay, I'm sure you'll know when the time is right.

What a rollercoaster for you :( xx

SarahP
25-03-2008, 05:31 PM
Clover has gone. I suddenly made the decision this afternoon. :cry:

Hilda, I drew strength from the decision you made about Nia.

Can't write more - too upset. Will get some photos together later.

Amy & Amber
25-03-2008, 05:36 PM
Clover has gone. I suddenly made the decision this afternoon. :cry:

Hilda, I drew strength from the decision you made about Nia.

Can't write more - too upset. Will get some photos together later.

Im so so so sorry,

I cant stand to be on the forum at the minute too many are being taken away from us. :cry:

Binky free clover, x

capel
25-03-2008, 05:41 PM
I've just got back and seen your post. I'm so so sorry Sarah, and know exactly how your are feeling today as do many others. We should all get together for a collective group hug.:(

Sooz
25-03-2008, 05:48 PM
Im so sorry Sarah, but I am positive you did right by her.

Binky Free Clover x

louandjoe
25-03-2008, 05:51 PM
Awww binky free Clover bunny, run free at the bridge x

Indiechic
25-03-2008, 05:53 PM
Im so sorry sarah, i know what you have gone through and I know its no confort, but i am thinking of you x

Becki xX
25-03-2008, 06:00 PM
Oh God, No :cry: Sarah, Im gutted for you & Dusty...I truly am :cry: Sleep tight Clover darling, all those tummy aches are over now :cry: X

bunnymadhouse
25-03-2008, 06:17 PM
so sorry :cry: :cry: :cry:

Rosie Rabbit
25-03-2008, 06:20 PM
Oh Sarah :cry: :cry: :cry:

Clover isn't suffering any more now, and you have been so, so strong for her over such a long time. You're in our thoughts.

Hugs to you all :cry: xxx

Jack-Bun
25-03-2008, 06:25 PM
Oh Im so sorry!
:cry:

cashmincal
25-03-2008, 06:25 PM
I'm sorry Sarah :(

*lily*
25-03-2008, 06:26 PM
Oh I'm so sorry. Sleep tight, baby girl.

TheGaffer
25-03-2008, 06:37 PM
Binky free Clover...:cry:

Lea-Anne
25-03-2008, 07:13 PM
Sorry to hear about Clover Sarah:cry:. An extremely difficult decision to make, especially as she went from being fine to drastically ill, but the right one.

Maizy
25-03-2008, 07:23 PM
I'm so sorry you've lost Clover. Binky free little one.

pumsalient
25-03-2008, 07:31 PM
Sarah
I am so sorry that Clover is gone but you can take comfort from the fact that you did the best for her. I know exactly what you are going through - I lost my beautiful 8 year old house bunny a few weeks ago and taking him to the vet (PTS) was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. The house is so lonely without him and although they can never be replaced I am sure we will both be able to give love to other bunnies some day. I have found it really helpful to write a poem about him and am putting together a scrapbook to remind me of all the happy times, the things he liked and funny incidents that happened.
Take care
Sara

Kirsty&Lola
25-03-2008, 07:31 PM
i'm so sorry for your loss:cry:

Jack's-Jane
25-03-2008, 07:38 PM
A brave and compassionate decision Sarah

Binky free Clover, with a fully healed tummy

Janex

Joanne26
25-03-2008, 07:50 PM
Really sorry :cry:

bunbuns
25-03-2008, 07:57 PM
I'm so sorry xxx

Steph
25-03-2008, 08:03 PM
So sorry thinking of you x

AlisonA
25-03-2008, 08:04 PM
I'm so sorry to hear this Sarah, after all the ups and downs I am sure you have made the right decision at the right time. Big hugs to you, hubby and Dusty xxx

bunny mad lisa
25-03-2008, 08:08 PM
I'm so sorry Sarah but you obviously loved Clover to be as brave as you were and she is now no longer in pain. You made the right decision and I know how hard it was for you.
binky free clover x

Fairy13
25-03-2008, 08:11 PM
I'm so sorry :cry:
Binky free Clover x x
Thinking of you x

donnamt
25-03-2008, 08:15 PM
binky free clover :cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:

vicky206
25-03-2008, 08:18 PM
im so sorry to hear this chuck:cry:

SarahP
25-03-2008, 08:29 PM
Thanks so much everyone x

Looking after Dusty and watching her look for Clover everywhere is breaking my heart, but I hope she'll settle down soon. I thought it would be easier to deal with a bunny death when I still had a bunny to look after, but I actually think I'd have found it easier this evening with no bereaved bunnies! :(

Basically, despite what I'd said earlier, I made the decision after feeling Clover's tummy. It had been very full feeling for a good few days now constantly, and after feeling it at about 2 pm, I just thought 'that has got to be painful', even with the high dose Metacam.

I'm not yet at the point where I feel I've done the right thing - I hope I get there. :( My vet was nice, but I could tell he just wanted to find some solution for her (but couldn't), rather than agree with me that it was the best thing to do.

FriskyClover
25-03-2008, 08:33 PM
I'm so sorry to hear about Clover.

I can't remember who said it but grief is the price we pay for love and I really think it's true. One day you'll be able to take comfort from the fact that you gave her many happy days and even in her bad ones, she knew that she was loved.

Hugs for you and Dusty

FC xx

Toni H
25-03-2008, 08:38 PM
Sorry to hear about Clover..........my thoughts are with you..........xx :cry:

cannonwoman
25-03-2008, 08:55 PM
I`m so sorry Sarah:cry::cry:

Thinking of you at such a sad time...............

Fionabun
27-03-2008, 07:37 PM
Hugs and kisses Sarah, sorry not to have been able to check back here sooner.

You nursed Clover so beautifully, giving her so much care and attention and of course unending love.

Rest in peace precious bunny. You have a place in my heart xxx

bunny babe
27-03-2008, 08:38 PM
I am so sorry for your loss, it is never an easy decision but it does sound like it was the right decision. You did all you could for her.

How is Dusty coping?

BeckyLH
27-03-2008, 09:03 PM
So sorry to hear that :(

SarahP
27-03-2008, 10:58 PM
I am so sorry for your loss, it is never an easy decision but it does sound like it was the right decision. You did all you could for her.

How is Dusty coping?

Thanks - I feel like I'm only just really starting to come to terms with it.

Dusty is.... not so lost looking today, but it doesn't help that she has the same condition, so her tummy isn't great herself. The fact that I have to keep giving her the hated tummy rubs isn't particularly endearing me to her, just at the point when I'm trying to get her to trust me. :(

Teepee
27-03-2008, 11:03 PM
Oh no! I am so very sorry!!!:(

I had no idea there was already a little Clover on RU either (my little white is a Clover) - I am going to whisper in her ear tonight that she shares her name with a much loved bun on the rainbow bridge and that she ought be proud to do so.

*Hugs* indeed.

TP:(

nursecroft
28-03-2008, 02:00 AM
really sorry for you, sending a big hug x

sillyrabbit
28-03-2008, 02:12 AM
:cry: Im so sorry :cry::cry::cry: xxx

Fifibutton
28-03-2008, 02:14 AM
So sorry to hear about this. Binky free little clover.

Happy Hopping
28-03-2008, 09:42 AM
So sad to hear this. Would you be gettting another bun? It's nice to have a few of these little ones hopping around, they really bring energy to the house.

kayj
28-03-2008, 11:23 AM
So sorry sarah you have done everything you possibly could and she will love you forever for that.:(

SarahP
28-03-2008, 12:19 PM
Thanks x

Have just been blubbing again, as I got a lovely letter/card from my vet.

Just had Dusty's soft toy arrive. Have tried to get some smell from Clover's carrier from her on it, but I doubt it really smells of her.

Dusty seems to be coming out of her shell a bit. :)

Teepee
28-03-2008, 12:27 PM
Oh! Poor Dusty - glad to hear she's "coming out of her shell" somewhat though.:(

I think it very nice of your vet to send you a card - that was thoughtful.

*Hugs* indeed - Clover was clearly a much loved little bun.

TP:(